"Just because you want something to be true doesn't mean that it is -- you cannot let your emotions convince your mind of things that aren't real! Take a detached perspective on things, right now. Be brutally honest with yourself about what is going on. What's your role in the day's dramas? When you see things clearly, you have the upper hand. Let other people kid themselves about the reality of the situation while you rise to a leadership role by knowing what the real deal is"

that's from my horoscope thinggy... sometimes all this readings just happen to be true... but yeah i know as muslims i am not suppose to believe in all this stupid readings... but what about the 'thing' that we call sheikh... or mak atok... or whatever that they appear to be... what about all this things...?? are they real...?? do they really take care of us...?? do they really know what is happening in our lives...?? nah... i don't think so... but of course it would be really cool if its true... overall, all the things that they say are not true... and yes... some of it are true... i am confused~

i spoke to julian regarding my increment... and he said that he wants to see my performance in a couple more projects... just to make sure that i really 'deserves' the increment... and for now, he will just give me incentive as a reward... hahahhaha... and so i will be receiving $500 for my hard work in completing BP's drafting project... its better than nothing... but i seriously need my increment ASAP!! omg!! i am soooo gready!! i just can't help it... =)

i'm in the office... at ajoy's place since he gets internet access... its 10.33 am and i am freaking hungry!! there is no job to do... julian asked ajoy to teach me how to do review... but the server is 'out'... we need the server to do the review i think~ hahahahh... whatever it is, i am still not talking to my mom... god knows why... because i myself don't know why... its really depressing!!