listening to CRUSH by david archuleta

a very happy birthday to my dearest cousin, hadzah aka adik aka belo aka mondok and the list goes on and on... lol...

May you live to be a hundred years

With one extra year to repent

and so mama is STILL not talking to me...

i am sure she is not gonna talk to me unless i talk to her first...

and she will continue ignoring me eventho i talk to her...

yeah... thats my mom...

i feel like something is missing in my life...

life...

may be i am missing my life because i had been working and working for the past i don't know how many months and i had been 'ignoring' everything that is enjoyable in life...

and i miss my oh so far girlfriends...

and i miss 'love life'...

i mean the sweet and full of hugs and kisses love life...

you know what i mean right...??

the problem is, i just cannot get the 'feel' right now...

may be i have some problem with my neuron system or something... lol...

and clubbing life is not as fun as it used to be...

may be because of the crowd...

nah...

may be because the fellow friends are not around to join...

what would i do when i become a mother :

- i would NEVER mention about ghost

- i would remind my kids that i LOVE them every single day

- i would KISS them before i go to work and every night

- i would COOK their favourite food

- i would HELP them with their homeworks

- i would not COMPARE them with other people's kids

- i would scold them but at the same time i'll TELL them why

- i would ASK them if they have any problems

- i would try my best to LISTEN to them

- i don't want to use any VULGAR words to them

- i want them to feel LOVED <---- thats the most important thing

- i would set a CURFEW for them (starting when they become teenagers)

- i would SHARE my life experience with them

- i want the FATHER to be there as they grow up

- i want to BE THERE for them no matter what

- i would ALWAYS acknowledge and congratulate their success and acheivements

- i would SUPPORT them in every good thing they do

i think all the things that we want our kids to practise should be thought since they are babies or may be toodlers; so that they won't feel all the 'pressure' when we say that they cannot do this and that...

i just wanna feel loved...