so many things to say... but i don't know how to convey it...

my relationship with izam is finally over... i think he has gotten over it... we can communicate as friends... but he still hopes that we will get back together...

something really2 bad had happen this week... i can't blog about it... mama was really depressed and sad about it... but what can i do...?? we cannot undone the things that we had done... no matter how sorry i am, people won't know how very depressed i am when i am the reason mama is sooo depressed... okey... i sounded so keling~ lol...

and so we went to nelayan restaurant in titiwangsa... steamboat... and i cooked... blergh~~

ajoy kata nampak sangat muka tak pernah masuk dapur... lol... i look so fucking ugly...

and here are the pics from chan and ong's farewell party...

i need to get over it..
the more i think about it, the more depressed i'll be...
it'll be harder for me to move on...
seriously, i need to change!!!
but i need something to get my mind of it...