I became more and more confused about my feelings these days.. I keep thinking about my ex and it is making things hard for me.. I can't seem to move on.. Whatever it is, i am trying really hard to keep my cool like there is nothing wrong.. Unfortunately the way i try to keep things 'cool' makes mama think that i am such an heartless bitch.. When i go out and spend a night out,mama will think that i am getting worst and i would never change.. I just need sometime to clear my mind; away from home with some friends.. But mama can't seem to understand the dilemma that i am going through.. Yeah.. I know that i should understand her situation as she herself have lots of problems to handle..

I just need some time to clear my head!! I need some space of my own..

I am hoping that i'll realize what is the thing that i want in my life.. It is pathetic to know that i am still unsure of the things that i want expecially at my age.. Blergh~ juz kill me..

Am currently waiting for ajoy's decision either to go to A-famosa for a friend's private party or not..

I am very depress and i can't seem to get over it!! God.. Plz help me.. I am such an unworthy earthlings.. -_-"