my hero~

my life savior~

yeah! baby is my hero~ he had been the one with me no matter what... u might say i am crazy talking about my cat like that but its the truth... he really understands me... he knows when i'm sad... he knows when i am crying and he knows when i need him the most... a very good example is now... he had been sitting with me since yesterday... he dont usually sits with me all the time when i am home but he had been with me whenever i am home since yesterday because he knows that i am afraid alone... and i went to the toilet just now and he wanted to go out from the room but i called him and asked him to teman me while i am doing my business in the toilet and there he is sitting in front of the toilet waiting for me... he is sooo sweet and adorable!! i love u baby!! i promise i'll buy u a new shirt... hehheheh... i've been sitting in my room all night because i am afraid and baby accompanied me all night long in my room... he only goes out from the room when he wants to go to the toilet, have a drink or eat... how can i give my hero away...??!!

its 1.50 am and i still cant get myself to sleep... its my first day of period... and i am having period pain!! i hate it!! i took 2 pain killer but it still hurts!! grrr~ i need to get some sleep because i need to go to work tomorrow... haizzz~ it is so painfull that i cant even close my eyes... fuck!!

i really2 hope mama would buy for me a studio apartment at holiday villa asap like she told me because this condo is HAUNTED!! i wont type anything regarding the 'thinggy' in this post because i am afraid... -_-"

i am really confused of my feelings... yeah i know i've been complaining about the same thing over and over again in my previous posts but thats the fact... i just dont know what to do and i dont know whats best for me... i am just afraid that i might 'miss my boat' because i cant make up my mind... i am pathetic!!!

work had been tiring but i learned new things... and i am doing PDMS for now; thanks to ajoy... heheheh... i don't really know much about PDMS but i am determined to learn more because i am sick of doing PlantLinx with those stupid point cloud... and now i am doing intelligent modelling in PDMS for structures... in case u guys are wondering what is PDMS; PDMS as it is known in the 3D CAD industry, is a customizable, multi-user and multi-discipline, engineer controlled design software package for engineering, design and construction projects in, but not limited to, offshore and onshore oil & gas industry, chemical & process plants, mining, pharmaceutical & food industry, power generation and paper industries...

for the first time in my life i am actually looking forward to go to work because i cant stand staying at home and imagining things in my head...