my life might not be as wonderful as i once imagined when i was a little girl but i am greatful that i am surrounded by people who loves me... =) i have no idea why i typed those sentance but thats the truth... sigh~ and i feel like crying everytime i think of how my life would be if my dad is here with me... i want to get to know him but at the same time i am afraid to do so... plus i dont know where to find him... whatever it is, there must be a reason why GOD set us apart... 'god gives us what we need and not what we want'... i'll always remember that quote for the rest of my life because it can give me strength in so many ways...

someone wrote about me having several guys in my life... yeah... i know it is not a good thing... but why have one when you can get more right...?? okey... it sounded sooo wrong!! i like attention and i like being pampered... so when i cannot get it from this person, i'll go to some other people who can give me attention and pamper me and make me feel like i'm needed and loved...
i want to apologise to you if you feel offended and hurt... i had never thought that i would fall for you and i never thought that you would get hurt... trust me that i would never wanna hurt you because you had been nothing but kind and loving to me... i'll cherish every moment that we had together because it is a special moment for us... and i am sorry if i keep adding more bfs or scandals in my life... i just cannot help it... i am so so sorry... but i have to confess that i do have feelings for you... :">

i don't wanna lie...

but i can't tell the truth...