i am such a bitch!! i hate myself!! i lost a bestfriend today because of my selfishness.. if i could turn back time, i'll make it right.. my tears rolled down the time you text me saying this friendship is over.. u want me to get out of ur life.. i deserve that eventhough it is not me who send those harsh msges to u.. god.. kill me!! yes.. i know it is my fault.. it is all my fault!! i'm literally pushing all off my friends because of 'him'!! people may say i am so stupid that i'm still with 'him' despite of all the things that he had done.. i dont know what to do.. i am so insecure and letting go is the hardest thing for me to do.. my dear friend, i beg for ur forgiveness.. plz forgive me!! i am so ashamed that i cant get myself to call or even text u to apologise.. today u made me realised something... something that i won't forget for the rest of my life~

the pictures pretty much sum up my saturday.. baby sitting.. hahha.. not really la.. i went out with kak nurul and her son.. i thought him how to read.. he is super adorable!! and he loves cars.. he'll go... "car..." "car..." and run straight to the car.. hahha...

god.. i can't stop blamming myself!!!!!