updates!!!

life had been really difficult... mentally, physically and emotionally... and i am broke!! really!! i received my pay on saturday; which is yesterday and its like mysteriously dissapear... lol.. no la... i paid my credit card, my handphone bill and... hurmm... i think that would be all... i know i had spend a lot by using my card and so i had to pay it back... cheers to me for paying my depts eventho not in full amount... hehheheh...

i borrowed ajoy's psp and i am addicted to it... reason...?? because of the stupid sims 2 game!! haih... and so i bought myself a deep red psp... ;D it costs me $1039!! damn it!! i had to add another $100 because of the colour... special edition la konon... hahahha... i tried to pay by using my card but my card was declined... i think mama put limit on my card and so i had to pay half by card and another half by cash... and that is the main reason why i am totally broke... -_-"

i bought the full package... and the packagee consist of :

- the psp

- 4G memory card

- up to 4G games

- sony earphone

- sony pouch

- and all the stupid settings

- plus another 50 free games of my choice

went to aquaria last weekend... and here are the overdue pics... bought the tickets by using my student ID since students get discount price... hehhehe... luckily there is no expiry date stated on my student id... ;D

its friday!!
yet another boring friday!!
the only interesting part about friday is that tomorrow is saturday... haizz~ i ran out of topic to blog... lol... most of the muslims workers are going back to their hometown today... i can't imagine the traffic heading out of KL... fuh~ luckily i am not one of those unlucky travellers... hahahahha... anyways, i'll still be going to work on monday... boring...?? yeah i know... thats life... and so i have received my confirmation letter... after several disscussion with the bosses, they didn't agree to give me the amount that i asked for... i mean the 2nd amount that i asked for... they gave me the 1st amount that i asked for... okey... i am trying really hard not to fall asleep here... -_-" really2 sleepy la... thats why type pun merepek je...

kindly add me at Facebook...

4 more days to go!! weee~ Raya!!i'll be going out with my ex this sunday as he wants me to accompany him to buy his baju melayu... and hopefully he'll be kind enough to buy for me one baju kurung as well... hehehhe... i'll be happy if i get baju kebaya nyonya... smileeeee all the way... lol... talking about raya, i remembered something... when i woke up this morning and trying so hard to open my eyes... i recieved 2 text msgs... from mama... both msges are from aunty cha... aunty cha gave it to mama and mama forward it to me... here it goes...


1st msg - "aliya (don't even know how to spell my name... -_-") bring hair colour 4 u couzins total = 6 including ur n u mom, caca will do for us malam raya"

2nd msg - "ask alya to buy for small yussuf a red shoes with balck triming for raya cheap 1s wl do shoe size same u feet"


and thats my aunty...may be her english is like that bcoz she married an arab guy... lol... okey... whatever~

today supposed to be our 4 years and 7 months anniversary... sigh~

text msg received on 21st September 2008 :

"dah la... tak payah u nak berpura-pura lg... cukup la... tak payah la buat i mcm ni... kesian la kat i..."

i received that msg from my ex yesterday... his last sentence makes me stop myself from calling or texting him... he asked me to pity him... what have i done...?? i've broken the heart of the person i love... how stupid is that...??!! just kill me!! seriously!! i don't even know what i want anymore~ i feel like crying!!

trying to ignore your feelings is the hardest thing to do...

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when u have to look away
when u don't have much to say
thats when i love u
i love u
just that way

to hear u stumble when u speak
or see u walk with two left feet
thats when i love u
i love u endlessly

and when u're mad cause u lost a game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby i love u
i love u anyway

cause here's my promise made tonight
u can count on me for life
cause thats when i love u
when nothing u do could change my mind
the more i learn, the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when i love u
when i love u no matter what

so when u turn to hide ur eyes
cause the movie, it made u cry
thats when i love u
i love u a little more each time

and when u can't quite match ur clothes
or when u laugh at ur own jokes
thats when i love u
i love u more than u know

and when u forget that we had a date
or that look that u give when u show up late
baby i love u
i love u anyway

19 - September - 2008

broke fast with ajoy, shima, shima's soon to be bf, ila, ain, panjang, panjang's fiancee, subhi, saiful and saiful's faincee at Izzi restaurant in bukit bintang... my favourite would be the pengat ubi... superrr yummy!!! ok... i got nothing to say... so just enjoy the pics aites... =)

met my university's friends at KLCC yesterday... miss them sooo much!! mia is flying off to UK today... all the best to her... they told me that few of our frens flew to UK last week... omg!! i am sooo jealous!! i wish i could join them... sob.. sob... okey... its my fault... if i went to all of my classes and i had study really hard then i would probably be joining them by now... haizz~ i told mama that i want to continue my studies overseas but she said that she can't trust me... she said i just wanna go and have fun there... part of it may be true... but still... i wanna go!!!!

lets have fun at toys r' us... weeee~ i am so childish... -_-"

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i don't know if i can love again...
i don't know if i can look anybody else the way i looked at you...
i don't know if i can hold someone and feel the same way that i had felt for you...
i don't know if i can love someone as much as i had loved you...
i don't know if i can say 'I Love You' and mean it to anybody else...
i just don't know...
i wish i can flew back into your arms and act like nothing had happened...
i just wish that i would be happy!!
happily in love with someone...
god... love is really painful... but people are still craving for love...
i hoped that the decision made was the right one...
i just wanna run far far away from here...

its thursday!! 18th of September... that means we have another 12 days to go before Hari Raya!! woot!! zomg... i just can't wait for my looonnggg holidays... okey... it is not gonna be that long since i applied for only 1 week leave... i need to keep the rest of my leave for my year end holiday... if i am not mistaken, mama gonna pay for my holiday trip... hehheeheh... that is the advantage for being super depressed... lol... btw, my holiday would be from the 30th till the 7th... but last night mama asked me to go to work on the 30th as she said we will be pushing off to singapore on the 30th itself... she don't wanna go to spore earlier because she afraids that we will be stuck in jam... i told her that we should get a flight to spore but she refused... wanna know what she replied...?? "ah...nanti penat menunggu je...1 hour tunggu flight...1 hour naik flight..." haizzz~ but at least we dont have to fly the plane!! duh~ she would stick to her plan of driving to spore because she is not the one that will be driving... its gonna be me!! god~ freaking 3 - 3 1/2 hours drive...

anyways, i just can't wait for Hari Raya!! i know that i wont get any duit raya because i am working... but its not fair right...?? its not that i am earning $10,000 a month!! we should follow chinese tradition... only married people have to give angpau... and all the single people should get angpau... then everybody don't wanna get married... lol...

julian is not in... in case you are wondering, he is one of my bosses... and he determines how much is my basic pay... and that is why i am like 'super concentrate' doing my work when he is around... and now that he is not in, here i am updating my blog... hehhehehe... but i've managed to complete 1 draft today... its not that its all play and no work okies... ;p here is a snapshot of the draft that i am working on earlier in the morning...

looks interesting...?? believe me... its not!! ok la, it would be interesting at first because you are so eager to learn new things; but after that, you'll be drafting in your dreams... hahahahha... that means mengantuk la doing this job... lol...

i am soooo getting myself a new handphone and a new car... yey!! ceh~ macam banyak sangat je my salary kan... hahhah... and and i've got something to share... i've receive my conformation letter but i refused to sign it because the salary that they are offering is low... its not the amount that i expected... and so after a few disscussion with julian, he agreed to give me the amount that i asked for... how cool is that...?? but the uncool part is the part when he told me all the things that i have to do and the worst part is; i have to do more overtimes... but of course the company is paying for my overtimes... and now i am waiting for my revised conformation letter... k bye... =)

FOOD!! and more food!!

went for beak fast with my ex last sunday at nandos as he insisted to belanja me... and i ordered this.... plus strawberry smoothie... can you imagine how full i am...?? i feel like my stomach was going to explode!! lol...

and i can't even finish this delicious banana pie + chocolate ice-cream... yum2x!!

anyways, after finishing our food, we went to his grandma's house to see his cute little sister... she is super cute and adorable!! and she looks so much like him!! =) she is 1 year and 1 month old... and i still can't remember her full name... -_-"

look at the pictures!! bunga api!! yey!! played sparkler with ajoy yesterday... it was fun!! i can't remember the last time i played one... i know my cousins would be super jealous because we used to play sparkler together every hari raya's eve... ;p

need to get my beauty sleep... nite2 everybody~

went buka puasa with imam; our officemate... he blanja us at Chinoz On The Park Klcc... the food was not that good but the pricing is super expensive... the price is about the same with Concorde's ramadhan buffet... to me, it is not worth it, but orang dah belanja kan, so just enjoy it la... hehheheheh...

after breaking fast, we went to Isetan Klcc to buy ajoy's baju melayu... btw, he looks cute in songkok aite...?? abit only la... lol... ngeh~ ;p

ajoy bought for me this delicious chocolate from Godiva... i love the packing!!

and i bought myself this Guess bag because i had to throw away the useless bag that i was using that day... haizz~

the best thing was the salvatore ferragamo perfume that ajoy bought for me!! yey!! the smell is suuuupppeeerrr nice!!! (bigggggg smile.....)

i wanna complain!!!

i can't understand why izit so hard for the company to give me a confirmation letter!! its been 2 months from the date that i am supposed to get my letter... wth is sabri doing...?? grrr~ the thing that makes me mad is knowing that one of my colleague just received his confirmation letter this evening... like wtf...?! i joined the company earlier then him and why the hell he gets the confirmation letter first...?! this is sooooo unfair!! i've talked to him twice regarding my letter and that guy just talked to him once about it and he gets the letter 1st!! !%$$@^&@!!!!! if the company wanna prolong my probation time, they can just tell me... i don't have problem with that... if the company don't wanna hire me as a full time employee, they should tell me... i can simply resign from the company by giving them 24 hours notice because i don't have any contract with them + they can't charge me anything because of the same reason... are they stupid or they are simply STUUUPPPIIIDDD??!! i've joined the company for a few months and i can do plantlinx, pdms and even drafting... so whats the problem...?? the operation director even asked me to learned new things to help the company speed things up but i have yet to receive my confirmation letter... is it because of my behaviour...?? yeah2, i know i used to go smoking, walk and talk alot; but that is not an excuse... if they say they can't give me my letter because of those reasons, they should tell me and i'll surely improve myself... duh~ i just don't get it!! i am trying to be patient here... mama asked me to resign because it looks like the company is not serious to hire me... and mama said she can easily help me get other job in other oil&gas company but i refused... whats wrong with me...?! lol... whatever~

i think i am having dhirea... and i've been puking... bad for my body... but look at the bright side... i can easily loose weight... wee~ ajoy said there are some improvement; muka dah lonjong... dah tak bulat... hahhahaha...

Capricorn Mythology

The sign Capricorn is symbolized by the Goat.Your sign's element is Earth. Capricorn is ruled by the planet Saturn.You are honest, thorough, practical, ambitious, business-like and careful. Capricorn can be cold and aloof. You are determined, dependable, responsible and may be interested in collecting antiques. Capricorn is very often politically minded. You have an excellent sense of timing. Capricorn is also patient, reserved, cautious, faithful and shrewd. You possess a great deal of drive, and your sense of duty is very strong. Capricorn can be very suspicious at times.Possible negative aspects of the sign Capricorn: You can be unfeeling, gloomy, pessimistic, miserly, unyielding, self centered, and revengeful.

i am sick... really sick since yesterday... i am having migraine, sore throat and flu... i didnt go to work today as i am not feeling well... went to see the DR this evening around 5 pm and guess what...?? he refuses to give me MC!! like wtf la kan...!!! why...?? because he said i should have come to see the DR in the morning... he said i am like 'not bothered' whether i am entitle to get MC or not... you crazy doctor!! you dont even bother to check my throat when i said i am having sore throat!! what kind of DR are you...?! he said i am very lucky to get MC from other doctors the last time i came... he asked me why i didnt come to the clinic in the morning... i said i wasnt feeling good... and he said its an excuse... he can only accept stroke as an excuse because stroke patience cannot move... like wtf...?!!!! he expects me to drive why i am having migraine...?? nak suruh aku accident ke ape...?! stupid asshole!!


went to break fast with ajoy since he is the one who brings me to see the doctor... went to sushi king... its like less then a week since the last time we had sushi... blergh~ you sushi freak!! hahahhaha...

below is a video i took at sushi king... i dared ajoy to finish the super hot wasabi... ngeh~

before going to Sushi King, we went jalan2 at ampang point because we have around 1 hour before breaking fast... and i bought 3 necklesses, 1 bracelet and a pair of earings... yey!! =)


thank God tomorrow is friday!!

PDE organized a Ramadhan Buffet at Concorde Hotel yesterday... there were a lot of food!! and the foods are good... yum2x... omg!! i realized i've been blogging about food, food and more food this ramadhan... hahhaha... there goes my diet... anyway, these are some of the pictures that we took that night... i love the desserts!!! =) i hate oysters!!! yucks!!! i nearly puke when i tried those oysters...

working makes you gain weight... really... lol...
i remembered someone told me... "in a couple of months, you'll be twice your size now..." -_-" what makes office people gain weight...?? simple... the aircond is super cold... it makes us hungry... we will tent to eat and chew anything that we can get hold off... plus dinner after work which is usually around 8 pm... yicks!! unhealthy life style!! no exercise la obviously... huargh~ this is soooo not good for me... but i think i am fatter when i was studying...

hello everybody!! i've been really busy sleeping... thats why i can't update... lol... okey, lets recap what had happened in my life since my last post...

my daily routine would be; go to work, go home, break fast, sleep then go to work again... humph~ what kind of life is that...?? i still haven't receive my confirmation letter... -_-"

my latest achievement would be, learning how to make draft... yey!! thanks to the boss for giving me the opportunity and thanks to ajoy for teaching... ;p i need one day to complete one draft... not bad right...?? hehhehe... i am proud of myself... but mama said; "i am not proud of you.." i seriously don't know what she expects from me...

anyway, can you identify what is this ugly thing...??

its a slice of pizza!! super disgusting right...?? hahhaha... i tried to bake it for sahur but unfortunately i overcooked it... yucks!!

when to mid valley on the 5th day of ramadhan to break fast with ajoy's family... we had sushi... his family is like super obsessed with sushi... hahhha... nyway, thanks for the treat!! and thanks for the famous amous... =) after sushi, we headed to baskin robins for ice cream...

on the 6th day of ramadhan, we went to planet hollywood for buka puasa with our friends... the food was GOOD!! i love the desserts and the lamb curry!! yum2x... the thing that catches my attention there would be the 'flying' power rangers... lol...

went shopping with mama yesterday... i bought 3 baju kurungs; purple, green and orange + brown... and it costs a total of $1000++... =) i just love shopping, so please don't comment anything about the pricing... i bought a clutch for hari raya before ramadhan... and so the thing that i need to complete my raya shopping list would be a pair of shoes... weee~

something that i heard on radio this morning :

rudy : santa-pan...
JJ : santapan buka puasa...
rudy : i had always thought that 'santa-pan' is the pan that santa uses to bake cookies..

-_-" -------> i just can't stop laughing!! lol!!

2nd day of ramadhan..

I've got new working hours (8.30 am - 4.45 pm) as of today untill the end of ramadhan.. I have to be ready by 7.30 am.. Traffic jam + the new office's liff would be my major problem.. My break time is from 1.30 pm - 1.45 pm.. and here are some of the pictures of my new office...

i have 3 bosses... and all the red arrow indicates the bosses office... and all 3 of them can see me straight from their places... lucky or unlucky me...?? -_-" i guess they just LOVEs me and that is why they place me where they can see me... sigh~

went for buka puasa with mama and ajoy at Ruz Aladdin Restaurant... beriyani and soto and caramel pudding and bubur lambok and salads and all those yummy kuih and again; the briyani... hehheheh... god, how can i slim down if i keep eating all these Good foods...??

i was so tired that i slept right after i reached home... with that full bloated stomach... yicks!! macam babi!! lepas makan, tido... lol... i think lack of sleep makes me tired eventho i didnt do anything today... am i getting old...?? hahhahaha...

i can't wait to shop for hari raya!! yippy!! =)

i am currently addicted to : Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find