today supposed to be our 4 years and 7 months anniversary... sigh~

text msg received on 21st September 2008 :

"dah la... tak payah u nak berpura-pura lg... cukup la... tak payah la buat i mcm ni... kesian la kat i..."

i received that msg from my ex yesterday... his last sentence makes me stop myself from calling or texting him... he asked me to pity him... what have i done...?? i've broken the heart of the person i love... how stupid is that...??!! just kill me!! seriously!! i don't even know what i want anymore~ i feel like crying!!

trying to ignore your feelings is the hardest thing to do...

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when u have to look away
when u don't have much to say
thats when i love u
i love u
just that way

to hear u stumble when u speak
or see u walk with two left feet
thats when i love u
i love u endlessly

and when u're mad cause u lost a game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby i love u
i love u anyway

cause here's my promise made tonight
u can count on me for life
cause thats when i love u
when nothing u do could change my mind
the more i learn, the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when i love u
when i love u no matter what

so when u turn to hide ur eyes
cause the movie, it made u cry
thats when i love u
i love u a little more each time

and when u can't quite match ur clothes
or when u laugh at ur own jokes
thats when i love u
i love u more than u know

and when u forget that we had a date
or that look that u give when u show up late
baby i love u
i love u anyway