i have paid my booking fees...

all the paper works and loans are done and approved!

and now i am waiting for my new car to arrive... weee~

yes!

the new honda city!

blue colour... i think it looks best in blue...

=)

i will be getting my car by end of july or august...

dear GOD,

i hope i will have enough money to pay for my car and all the bills when my mom retires... and hopefully i will have extra money for shopping and savings... amin...

i am sooo soooo tired!

stiff neck...

migraine...

sore eyes...

just name it... sigh~

working is really tiring expecially if you have to go to work early in the morning and go home at night... may be mid-night... or may be the next day... i can't imagine how my mom manage it... now i understand how tired she is... lol!

anyways, my mom is retiring in august... and all the bills will be paid by me...

how i wish i could just stay at at home and enjoy life without having to go to work... -_-"

my mom has lotsa plans after retiring...

1. take care of achuk
2. holiday all around the world
3. study
4. open a mind & soul healing kinda shop

and lots more...

it is really nice thinking of retiring and spent all those money that you had worked for... i am sure it would be really worth it! haha...

baby is a bully!

he will lay on top of cupcake and bite her...

mind you he is big and cupcake is only 2 and 1/2 months old...

and he'll eat cupcake's food...

and when cupcake is playing with a toy, he'll just dashed at it and play with the toy...

it is kinda funny thinking of him being so jealous but i pity my little cupcake...

presenting my new cat..
cupcake!!
its a persian cat..

just bought it yesterday..
it is 2 and 1/2 months old..
i had problem choosing which cat to buy.. because all of them are super cute and adorable!

bring her home and baby was super mad..
sigh~
he'll get used to it in a couple of days.. hopefully!

cupcake is super manja! she'll keep on meow-ing when she is left alone.. and she'll stop once she sees my face.. how cute is that..?

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look at this marilyn monroe doll.. nice kan..?

ajoy's mother bought this doll for me..
so sweet..
i am in the office now and i am so sleepy!!!
huargh~


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went out with a friend and we talked about marriage.. and he disagreed with the idea of staying in a house together with the mother-in-law..

he said that it is not convinient and it would be very problematic if a couple were to stay with their in laws..

1. they are suppost to manage their own family without any interruption from their in laws
2. uncomfortable
3. mother-in-law or father-in-law would interfear with their personal lives

i agree with some of the points but as the only child, i think i should take care of my mom.. i can't be living in a different house then her just because i am married.. if she can sacrifice and take care of me no matter what, why can't i do the same for her right..?

if i am not there for her.. then who would..? her brothers and sisters are so far away.. my cat? if anything happens to her and i am not there.. i would never forgive myself..

it is true that i can always visit her eventho i live in a different house but still.. i can't be going to her house every single day exspecially in my field of work.. i will be so tight up with my work and i would be back late and of course i want to go home straight away and have some rest..

people may not understand because they still have their dad and they have other siblings that are still staying with their parents..

i would rather not get married then living my mother alone.. i would choose my mother more then anything..

i only have her in my life besides my cat.. and i think i owe her for raising me from a little child till i grow up.. and i know it is very hard for her to provide everything for me as a single parent.. the least that i can do to repay her is by taking care of her..



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ya allah..
walau sesiapa pun jodohku, akan ku terima seadanya..
sesungguhnye kau yang lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk ku..
amin..

i am so damn nervous!
i am having butterflies in my stomach just by hearing them planning their way to propose me..
i just hope i have the guts to face THE DAY when someone really come proposing!

i am so not ready!
this is all my mom's fault!
:(


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what is the meaning of LOVE...?

LOVE is very abstract..

i don't even know how to describe the feeling...

but i know i had felt it...

what do you do when you fall in love..?

you will become so happy...

you'll feel like like nothing else matters.. it is just you and that person...

do want to marry that person to prove that you love her..?

or are you willing to let that person go to some other people arms if thats the thing that will make her happy...?

or do you think that she is better off with you..?

there are so many questions.. and i can't seem to get the answer...

but then i remembered a phrase..

" marry someone that you cannot live without and not someone that you can live with.."

its true right...?

what if i don't know who is that person...?

i don't know which guy is the right guy...?

would you marry someone but then you keep feeling the "feelings" that you had for that someone else...?

it is sad and pathetic.. i know that... and i do not intent to hurt anybody... i am just torn apart..

my mother wants me to get married...

but...

yes... i do want to get married..

i do want to feel the happinest that all married couple experience...

but there is something missing...

its my feelings...

i don't feel anything...?

why...?

may be because i just choose to not to have any feelings..

why..?

because i don't want to feel the pain..

what should i do..?

i don't know!

i don't know!

i don't know!

i had decided to just 'go with the flow'...

but what if the flow just stops and i have to make a decision..??

gosh!

ok... my point is, how would you know if that someone is the one..?

how would you know if that someone is the one that you are suppost to get married with...?

i just can't imagine myself leaving someone who had sacrificed so much for me...

i just can't!

i am just a normal human being who can't stand making the person whom i love broken hearted...

i just can't!

forgive me..

shit!
i've written so long then someone called me and the next thing i know, everything is gone! grrr~

malas nak type lagi.. just look at these pictures and make your own conclusion aites..

- penang
- tiring
- good foods
- cheap foods
- by the sea