someone ym me asking my opinion bout his dick... like wtf...??!!
his ym id is "nasiktambah"... beware of this sick bastard!!!

i said to him i'm not a bitch...
he said i dont need to be a bitch to like a dick..
i said only a bitch will like any dick that she can get her hands on..
then he said that is not what he thinks bout me...

i said go ask other peps bout his dick..
he said he wanna ask me..
coz it happen to be me...
he is sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like eww~
u dont just simply show people ur dick la man!!!
ITS DISGUSTING!!!

i've lost 4 kg!!! wee~

and i need to get rid another 5 kg.. hehehheh...

mama always said that she wanna buy the hunted house in ampang jaya.. and guess what...? the house is actually for sale now!! and today we are gonna go to that house and take down the number.. but the house really look like a hunted house... scary man.. but nyeh.. as long as we are not 'attached' to aunty cha than its ok... coz she can't complain anything bout it...

i wanna buy the skirt at MNG... super nice la.. boyfriend and i went there yesterday but obviously la kan he won't allow me to get that skirt.. but nevermind.. i am soooo gonna get that skirt tomorrow!! hahah... ;p

i'm bored shopping at KLCC... like most of the outfits are the same.. i need a new place to shop.. sunway would be nice.. hehhe...

mama is soo chayaya.. i can get all the outfits and even the boots that she bought for me at zara oman in klcc.. like if you go shopping overseas you should buy something that is not on sale in your own country right.. -_-"

he called me!!!!


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i went to nani's house.. her cats are beautiful!! tommy is handsome!! hahah.. too bad its a cat.. lol..

i love my baby!!

to hammy and adeq.. plz stop sayin you wanna kill my cat... cepuk muka kau!!

my plans for next week

• fill up UniKL application forms
• bank in rm10.00 at cimb bank for the processing fees
• fill up university of tasmania application form
• go to maxis and cut off my hp bill
• dinner date on tuesday

JIWA KACAU!!!!!!!




i can't sleep...




i keep thinking of you!!!




damn it!! why is it so hard for me to forget you...??!! i really, desperately wanna take you off my mind... plz...





i did 40 sit ups... simply to get you out of my mind...




but i can't... i'm so weak~ i can't believe i am this weak when it comes to you...

i wanna cut those chubby cheaks!!! hate it!!!!

this is nani.. i knew her for about 4 months.. she is great.. her bf is just simply awesome.. they are such a great couple.. and they are indeed a good friend... they really care for me.. it is hard to get new friends that really cares for you nowadays... i'm blessed... they call me princess and they treat me like a princess.. hahha... really...

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you want me to stay at home..

i can't go out with my friends..

you'll freak out if i go out with anybody whitout telling you first...

you wanna know everything that i do... every single thing...

have you ever thought of my feelings...???

you'll just simply be mad and shout at me as you like...

i am not your freaking doll!!!

i'm sure you'll be mad if you find out that i wrote all this in my blog.. you'll say i wanna tell everything to everybody... god... get a life!! i need someone to talk to... since i cannot talk to anybody, i decide to scratch everything down in my blog... i need somewhere to pour everything out... i am not that strong... i cannot hold it on my own...i tried to cry... but the tears just wont come out...

i should just leave you...

"if you love someone, set them free.. if they come back they are yours.. but if they don't, they never were..."

i wanna let you go...

but i cannot bare to live without you...

i need some breathing space!!!!!!!!!!

good son uh...? some for you and some for me mummy... hehehhe... this is kak nurul and her first child.. sory coz i can't remember his name.. ;p

yey!! at last i get to watch enchanted.. i know it is so last month.. or izit two months...? lol..

i remember going to the cinema to watch enchanted but we went out from the cinema after 20 minutes or so coz we had a fight.. so childish...? i know..

i am thinking of applying for degree at micet (the uni where i did my diploma).. it would be really funny coz that is the last place i wanna do my degree.. argghhh... i hate that place!! i have to travel from melacca to KL like everyweek!! i know i can just stay there and come back to KL once a month like every other ordinary students would do.. nyek!! unfortunately i'm not the ordinary, boring student who would stay in the room and study and go jogging in the evening.. i am just not one of them!! thank god!! hahahah.. i need my life in KL.. i rather stay at home with my cat then stay put in that oh soo boring world of vendor city..

since most of my readers are not micet's student, i'll explain to you guys something.. 'vendor city'.. how would u picture that place would look like...?? happening...?? hahaha.. we get the vendor city name from bandar vendor (the place where my uni is situated).. we translated it to english so that it'll sound more.....interesting... hahaha... pathetic..

presenting...............

vendor city.............

tadaaaaaaa..............

can u magine how ur life would be if u are stuck here for at least a month... no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss him..
he had been really busy..
we meet only once in two weeks time..
i only talk to him for a few minutes a day..
i'm doing things behind his back...
is it my fault..???
no...
u barely have time for me!!
i am really trying to understand your situation..
new job.. yayayay~
u said u miss me... woah.. look who's talking..
if u r not so obsessed with the EVO thinggy, u'll hv more time for me..

"what..?? u r still with him..?"
"what happened to u..?? u r not the alya that we used to know.. u r a player.."
yeah.. that is what my friends would say to me everytime we meet..
people change~
4 years man!! hahahha.. freaking 4 years..
full of break ups, patching and more arguments..

- now you're gone by basshunter -

this is officially one of my favourite song.. hahha..

i woke up at 12.00 pm.. surf the net.. chat with some peps.. eat.. and now i'm sleepy..

god.. i'm really gonna gain weight if i keep the same routine that i'm doin today for the next 3 months.. pathetic..? yeah.. i know.. i think i'll go to singapore next month.. adeq.. u promised you'll bring me to M.O.S right..?? free drinks all night long..?? hahahh... after singapore, i'll stay in johore for few days..

i realised something..

it is very important for us to know what and how we want to raise our child.. the child will grow exactly the way we nurture them..

I LOVE YOU

it is a simple sentence.. telling someone how you feel..

looking at my friends.. telling their mom.. i love you.. i wanted to do the same thing.. but i can't.. why..? because my mom had never told me she loves me.. i know she loves me.. but sometimes we just need to tell that person to remind them how much we love them..

"the thing that i regret is; i had never told my mom how much i love her..."

my mom told me that..

i don't want to make the same mistake.. i'll make sure to tell my childrens how much i love them every single day of my life so that they'll do the same thing to me and to their child..

i am the selfish moron!

i am an ungreatful daughter!

i am useless!

i am not like other people's child!

i am stupid!

i am not up to your ridiculously high expectations!

i am just me!

why is it so hard to except that...???!!!

almost everyday of my life i hear u talking shits bout me... telling people how useless i am.. fuck!!!!! i wish u'll just kill me!! you are comparing me with some bullshits.. your fucking words hurts me!! and why do you think i said all those things to you...?! coz i just cannot take it anymore!!!

what do you expect from me...???? THE PERFECT DAUGHTER???? nobody is perfect for godsake!! ouh.. yeahh.. i know.. everything is my fault.. i am rude.. i just do whatever i wanna do.. i always give you that long face...... wwahahhaha... i am a crazy bitch that won't make you happy no matter what i do!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!!!! i know that!!!!!!!!!!! i wish i have a brother or sister that will be perfect enough for you!!!!!!

the moon~
at last i get to see the moon up close.. not that close la.. hehheh.. but i think it is good enough.. thanks to you!! =)



taken from nad's blog..

hari ni life aku okey je. alya comment post aku titled "i'm a pirate".. ehehe.... rindu bangat sama alya. igt lg die ms LI (industrial training), ikot suke die je tak dtg keje mcm kapten tu sugar daddy die. bile alya tak dtg keje, kapten tak mara pn. bile aku dgn mimi tak dtg keje, esok pagi konfem kene naik ofis punye. tak puas ati gile. mentang2 alya sexy (oops...).. wahaha....

nad!! kau sungguh kejam~ hahhaha.. i'm not that sexy okey.. ada org lagi sexy.. tapi diorg suma kena pakai uniform.. hahhahahhah.. ;p

seriously, i don't think i'm sexy.. i mean, the way i dress up.. to me, its normal.. during my industrial training i just wore jeans and shirt.. but yeah.. they still say that i'm sexy.. -_-" even my supervisor said so... and my supervisor is a female.. hahahha..

i miss nad~

i miss mimi~

and i miss captain~

what do you do on your last day..? camwhoring!! woot!!

vincent - alya

alya - selicia - kak nurul


kak nurul - alya

selicia - alya


miss lee - alya


alya - boy - ila

jane - alya

siew yee - alya

michelle - alya

aileen - alya

marina - alya

vijay - alya

alya - april

alya - esther

alya - bazli

tricia - alya

alya - shanee

alya - mel

no more work to do..

sleep..

eat..

surf the net..

sleep again...

thats it!! i am now a full time employee for my bed.. yey!!

lets just hope i wont gain weight~ ;p

sometimes you just need a shoulder to cry on~

the new version of 'batu belah batu bertangkup'..

if u cannot read it, please click on the picture to enlarge it..

went to KLCC with mama to watch shutter.. it is a ghost story.. but it is not that scary..

A newlywed couple Ben and Jane move to Japan for a promising job opportunity - a fashion shoot in Tokyo. During their trip on a dark forest road they experience a tragic car accident, leading to the death of a young local girl. Upon regaining consciousness, they find no trace of her body. A bit distraught the couple arrives in Tokyo to begin their new life. Meanwhile Ben begins noticing strange white blurs in many of his fashion shoot photographs. Jane believes that the blurs are actually spirit photography of the dead girl who they hit on the road, and that she may be seeking vengeance. - the girl (ghost) is actually ben's ex girlfriend.. 2 of ben's friends raped her and ben just stare and do nothing.. the girl committed suicide.. and she hunts them down..

mama said guys should watch the movie and the ghost thinggy should happen to every guy that screws around.. lol..

how can you leave someone who shared everything with you...?

how can you leave someone who loves you more than anything else..?

how can you leave someone who is willing to leave everything just to be with you..?

it is such a simple question... how could you...?

I didn't play no games, I listened to my heart

i spend the whole day surfing the net and sleeping.. i'm suppost to go for an interview today but i was soo lazy that i woke up at 12.00 pm.. heheh.. it is so typical of me.. mama said i should stay in spore for a month since i have nothing to do.. if i go to spore, then i'll miss all the fun here~ hmm..

aunty cha keep smsing mama complaining bout her step son.. seriously, her step son is damn handsome la... aunty cha said to him "i'll kill you.. cut you into pieces and bury you beside your mom.." she is soooo cruel la.. how can u say such thing to a 7 year old kid..?!

So innocent, no clue on what to do..

with a broken heart

That's unfixable, in two and torn apart

weekend.. i only need one word to describe it... FUN!!!! hehehhe..

i'm not feeling well.. i have been puking everytime i eat something.. i hate it!! i am really hungry but when i eat, i'll puke it all out.. so what's the point of eating right..?

i went to see the DR yesterday.. and the first thing she asked me after i said i keep on puking everytime i eat is... "are you pregnant..?" like wtf la... then she checked me and she told me everything is fine.. she said i'm anorexic.. funny ah.. i'm fat yet still u say i'm anorexic.. then she said, i've set my mind not to eat coz i wanna lose weight.. so when i eat something, the body will automatically reject the food.. i'm pathetic.. but it is kinda cool.. no need to exercise.. haha..

my service at gastrodome will end this friday.. as sad as it may b, i'm really greatful coz i was given the opportunity to learn and gain experience in this company.. cass said i've done a good job.. yeah.. i know i did.. lol.. she said during my semester holidays, i can call her to ask if there is any job vacancy.. how sweet.. ;p

alya!! seriously u have to stop eating!! u pig!! wahahahha.. this is selicia.. she is the best!! sadly she is leaving the company early next month.. waaa~ i'm gonna miss u.. sob.. sob.. her husband is working for the F1.. dunno as what.. i asked her to ask her husband if i can join in.. if there is no vacancies, mama will help me in.. yey!!

no more rice for me~

you dump ass!! the only thing that you think of is urself! u don't want anything to do with me just because of a small thing, fine! i'm really fine with it!! u pig headed person!!

my life had been great at gastrodome aka La Bodega.. seriously.. all the staff are superb!! and as u can see from the pics.. its all about foods, drinks and laughter...

this is kak nurul.. she is fun and a very outgoing person.. she is my slacking partner.. we spend time like 3 to 5 hours a day together.. she is a mother of 2 cute little babies.. and yet i force her to slack wif me everyday.. ;p with all the great foods, i dont think i can diet.. ahhhh~ plz.. i need to get rid at least 5 kgs!!

20 important advises

• give people more than they expect and do it carefully
• marry a man / woman u love to talk to; as u get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other
• don't believe everything that you hear, spend all you have and sleep all you want
• when you say 'I LOVE YOU', mean it!!
• when you say 'I'm Sorry', look the person in the eye
• be engaged at least 6 months before u get married
• believe in love at first sight
• never laught at anyone's dream. people who don't have dreams, don't have much
• love deeply and passionately. you might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely
• in disagreements, fight fairly. no name calling
• don't judge peolple by their relatives
• talk slowly but think quickly
• when someone ask you a question u don't want to answer, smile and ask.. "why do u want to know?"
• remember that great love and great achievements involve great risks
• say 'bless you' hen u see someone sneeze
• when u lose, don't lose the lesson
• respect urself, respect others and responsible of all ur actions
• don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship
• when u've realised u made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it
• smile when picking up the phone. the caller will hear it in your voice
• spend some time alone

PLEASE DO NOT LITTER!! look at this poor guy... gosh.. i feel like cryin.. can u imagine the pain the turtle had to suffer..? don't be so cruel.. stop literring.. save the animals..

Facts About Littering - How Litter Happens

It Gets Blown
- Litter can blow out of a truck bed without the driver knowing.
- Avoid putting anything in a truck bed that might blow out on the road.
- Cover all loads to avoid items blowing out.


It Gets Thrown
- Litter shouldn't be thrown from a vehicle.
- Avoid throwing litter out of car windows by keeping a litterbag in the car at all times.

It Gets Dumped
- It is illegal to continue dumping your trash at the site where a dumpster once was.
- These illegal dumping sites can poison groundwater and kill local wildlife.
- Don't create illegal dumping sites.

Reducing Litter

- Don't Litter! It's illegal.
- Pick up Litter.
- Report Littering.

this is bloody marry.. and it is bloody hot!! i can't even finish half of the drink.. seriously it is bloody hot!! it is a mixture of tomato, black pepper, vodka and tobasco.. so can u imagine how hot izit..? luckily its free.. hehhe.. kak nurul and i slacked at La Bodega Lounge to chit chat, smoke and have some drinks.. oh yeah.. in case you are wondering how come i can get free drinks, La Bodega is one of the restaurant from the Gastrodome group.. Gastrodome is the company that i'm working now..

my baby cat is grounded!! last night he crossed over to the neighbour's balcony.. i was soo worried that i had to go down and look for him.. i even asked the guard if he saw my cat.. then bout 1 hour after his dissapearance, i heared his colar's bell.. i asked him to cross home but he was afraid to cross back.. aku cepuk muka kau!! he slept at the neighbour's balcony coz the neighbour is not home.. we went to work and we left the sliding door and front door open.. luckily the neighbour is back.. if not, we have to call the firemann to rescue him.. -_-"

whats up with the long face..? hehheh..

the heart has its reasons~

i wish i could make the right decision.. i am easily blinded by the looks and comfortness given by u.. when u do something and u feel so guilty for doing it eventhough it is nothing serious.. is that a sign of love or fear..?

gigi maintain eh~ haha.. last night was great.. i went out with some new friends.. we went to laundry the curve.. at first i tot, damn it! i went out with the wrong crowd! but they are actually great.. it is indeed funny to watch what 'high' people do.. the most funny part was, this gurl ordered sizzling chicken chop, then when the food came, she said..

girl : who ordered this..?

fren : just now u ordered it..

girl : why is it not the same as urs..? (the fren eating lamb chop)

fren : makan..

girl starts eating with fork and an upsidedown knife -_-"

she keeps eating with the upsidedown knife and her knife and fork keep falling down the table.. haha..

when i first step in the car, i salam everyone.. but this girl just kept staring at me.. and wont salam me.. and i was like.. ookkeeyyy~ few minutes later she tunjuk penumbuk at me.. i was like.. huh..? then she asked me.. "alya..rumah kat mana..?" i said.. "yang tadi u datang tu.." haha.. i asked her fren "is she ok..?" then the fren said she took ecstacy.. oh.. so no wonder.. the whole time i tot she doesnt like me.. lol..

the facial and massage was great.. really good.. =)

"is that original.. the one that you are using / wearing?" like wth..?! i hate that question! do i look like someone that cannot afford to buy original stufz..? no~ u people (i mean those peps that ask tis stupid question) is the one that cannot afford to buy original, branded stufz.. that is why they ask stupid questions.. coz they just can't see the difference between imitation and genuine things.. oh.. may be its not their fault.. coz they had never touch / buy / use original, branded things, that is why they just can't tell the difference.. god.. i'm being mean~ i apologise..

i called the spa that i'm suppost to work at yesterday.. i told them the person who is suppost to replace me is not here.. and i have to give my employer 1 month notice and the spa need a receptinist urgently.. so i can't work for them.. thousands of apologies.. haha.. i'm such a good liar~

the chayayas are back to spore.. they took the 9.30 pm bus.. my room is in total mess! thanks to hamster and adeq! empty bottles.. mugs.. plastic bags.. price tags.. towels.. dirty clothes.. cepuk muka korg!

my baby cat is very happy all the kekengki cousins and aunties are back.. he can play around freely without any interruption~ haha..

i've set my mind.. i'm not working at the spa.. the pay is low which is rm1200 and i have to work long hours.. 11 am to 8 pm + i have to work everyday except for friday.. like wth?! no life~
mama made facial and massage appointment for me tomorrow.. yey!

we went for a drink at metro last night.. quite okey.. i don't like the place.. hadz and hammy wanna go shopping but they wake up at 6 pm.. -_-"

went for an interview yesterday.. as a receptinist at a spa.. i asked for $1600, working hours from 10 - 8 but they said the spa is still new.. so they gonna pay me $1200 only.. so i cut the working hours from 11 - 8.. 6 working days.. i can imagine how exhausted i'll be.. i don't want to work!! i wanna stay home and sleep like other kids.. hehhhe.. too bad i'm not a kid nymore.. they said they gonna increase my salary after 3 months.. like i'm gonna work there forever..

i ponteng work yesterday and today.. hehhe.. luckily i'm just a part timer.. i gonna start working at the spa on monday.. so what day should i take as my off day..? monday or friday..? i want it to be sunday! shit! i wanna turn down the offer but mama keep mumbling.. blablablablablablablabla~

okey.. watever it is, i just can't wait to get enroll for degree.. god.. plz.. i don't want to work nomore..

shop till u drop!! nyehhehe... i spend around rm800 yesterday... it feels good... ;p gonna go shopping at klcc again today and we are going to pavilion on sunday.. yey! i wanna buy the chanel perfume and the calvin klein shoes...

to ham - i wanna play I Do ( Cherish You ) by 98 degrees.. classic.. hehhe.. there is something bout the song that makes me cry expecially playing the song at my wedding reception.. dancing under the moonlight.. ah~ i am thinking of doin my wedding reception on a ship.. star cruise.. and the theme will be 'the ocean'.. sea shells.. i wonder how much do i have to spend to make it come true.. hmm..

cleaned the house coz aunty cha and aunty long is coming.. fetched them at 5.00 am..

luckily aunty cha is not feeling well; so she'll be sleeping all day.. hopefully~
she chased baby out of the house.. chaya! then she said, she gonna throw baby in the forest.. -_-"

so who is coming to KL tomorrow..? ham, hadzah and yun izit...? u guys better bring some cash so we can chayaya around + its sale time..