ramadhan day 2

went to midvalley..
had my hair done..
mama is happy because she gets to shop.. lol!

abducted by aliens..? no..?












kepala ku berasap! hahaha..


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ramadhan day 1

it is my first time making spring rolls.. it turned out quite good..




ice milo fuze never tasted better! lol..







mama cooked ayam masak kari..






banana as desert..






and both of my cats had to be 'prisoned' while we were breaking fast or they will join us as well.. :p

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Cyclone...

have you heard of this software...?

it is used in my company to register point clouds...

it is basically the site team's job but i have to help them with the registration thinggy as they need more source to get the thing going since there are alot of scans to be process...

while waiting for the scans to be uploaded in my computer (which takes ages!), i decided to blog since there are nothing much that i can do except waiting... lol!

below is the LV handbag that i purchased...

nice...?

no...?

i am not a big fan of LV's handbags.. but i guess one never hurts... :p

i am planning to buy one handbag from every single designer...

it would be like my own collection!

ok... i am excited!

i am a big spender... but who cares right...?

i want it, i buy it with my own money!

it would be a bonus if i get it for free of course... heehhehe...

currently i have :

1. Salvatore Ferragamo

2. Fendi

3. Louis Vuitton

and i am so gonna get one ridiculous over priced Versace handbag!

mind you Versace handbags are SUPER expensive!

but they are totally worth it!

aaaahhhhh~

pssst!

to whom that may corncern...

i dont mind getting one of these handbags as my birthday present...

:D

its name is Neverfull GM...

the product code is N51106...

its name is Neverfull GM...

the product code is M93701...

its name is Alma MM Roses

the product code is M93686

and as a bonus, that generous someone could buy for me a matching wallet as well... the one that i am interested in is M91998... go check it out! i can't find a decent photo of it... of any other LV's wallet would do... as long as it is long...

;)

burned..
i burned my finger..
it hurts so bad!
but it is getting better now after mama reiki it..

i made some curry puffs..
it tasted good..
but it looks horrible! lol!

someone told me to find the right partner in life, one should observe :
1. the way they treat u when you are happy
2. the way they treat u when you are sad
3. the way they treat u when you are angry
4. the way they treat u when you are sick
5. the way they treat u when you are in trouble

and the most important part would be,

6. the way they treat u when you are just being yourself!

it is important to know if that certain person can accept u for who u are and not for who they think u should be..

i don't know why i wrote that..
i am not happy!
i am not happy with u!
yes! u!
i know that i am not as sweet and loving and caring as they are..
and i know that i have a very bad temper that often make me say things that i should have not said.. but thats me!
i cannot help it..
i am just being me..
yes! the self absorb smug bitchy selfish lazy indenial tempremental girl!

when i asked, what are the things that makes them better then me..?
and u can simply answer it as easy as A B C..

but when i asked, what are the things that makes me better then them..?
u can't answer it!
u had to think!
u had to force urself to answer my question and it took like 15 mins before u answer it..
why..?

i feel..............
and u kept saying that i dont know how to appriciate..
i treated u like a 'kain buruk'...

well, it is true..
it is hard for people to see and realize their own
mistake..

may be it is just me....



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i went out from home because i am so pissed off with mama!
she is so, shall i say obsessed and over protective over cupcake..
adik this..
adik that..
like wtf..??
what made me really mad tonight was because of her 'couldnt care-less' attitude towards baby..
she was spraying sheiltox in my room and when she finishes, she carried cupcake out of the room and shut my bedroom door closed..
and i was like, where is baby..???
and she said.. how should i know, everything also i need to know.. padahal she is the one who kept on shouting asking baby to get out of the room..
and when i opened the door, there is my little cat INSIDE my fucking room with the fucking door closed full with the fucking dangerous sheltox to inhale!
i am so mad!
so so mad!
why she have to push baby aside and give her full attention to cupcake..??
he is cat!
not a freaking doll!!

now i dont have to wonder why she has only one child!


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i am having toothache!

it is REALLY painful!

i can't even sleep last night...

i cried...

it hurts so bad!

went to see the dentist and the dentist said my wisdom tooth need to be extracted since the lubang is very deep... but it cannot be removed today because my gum is swollen... so the dentist gave me antibiotic and painkiller... then i need to see the dentist again to remove my wisdom tooth once the antibiotic is finished...

i am so afraid of dentist! expecially thinking of the dentist removing my tooth!

GOD!

please help me go through this!

:((

enough of sad thoughts..

my mom bought me a vaio laptop!

weeee~

i am so happy with it eventho i am not very keen with the vista system...

complete with the pink wireless mouse as well...

so so happy!

:D

being with you makes me feel loved..
i can feel it but it is hard for me to show it..
i want to tell you but i just can't..
it is not because you are not good enough..
it is not because there is no love..
it is just because i don't want to hurt you more..

you and me..
i used to love you with all of my heart..
but i am not sure if i feel the same way now..
how am i suppost to tell you..?
i am so affraid to upset you..
i am so affraid to break your heart..
i am not strong enough..
i am not selfish enough to just think of myself..
this shows that i care for you..
it shows that there is still love..
can i ammend it..?
do i want to ammend it..?
is it worth it..?

all the experiences that i had gone through made me afraid to say those three words..
i want to feel the warmth of love again..
but i am too afraid..
i am too fragile..
i am too weak..
i had blocked my heart from letting it in again..

i am sorry..


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