i am stress out!!

why...??

because mimi is getting engaged..

WHY...??

because we are in the same age and he is getting engaged soon whilst i still dont know who is mr right... how pathetic is that...?? and mama is talking about double wedding... like wtf..?! i dont think i am ready for all of that... am i afraid of commitment...?? no.. i dont think so.. but may be... no... the answer is no because my only problem is finding the right guy for me... gosh!! i really feel old!! thanks mimi!!  -_-"

i had always plan to work and keep as much money as i can.. buy properties... get my degree.. then only i will get married... because getting married before everything is ready is not a good idea to me because couples tend to quarrelled over money and i dont want that to happen... i am a paranoid... dont blame me... blame my surroundings... sigh~

i still dont know what i want... mimi told me that we will know what we want when we get it... hummpphh... i hope i wont be too old when i know it.. lol... and some people said that i have to change my attitude..  but whats the point of changing for something else... is it worth it..?? it really depends... okeyy... i dont know wth i am mumbling...

the bottom line is, i feel like i have to find someone to be my life partner... mr right!! yes!! i dont want any guy... i want that someone who can make me feel complete.. aaahhh... that would be a really great feeling..  :")  i hope i will find that someone soon... it is one of my new year resolution... nyahahah...

work had been tiring... i need to have some fun but unfortunately i dont think i can do that because i received a text msg from mak ani this morning regarding my mom.. she forwarded my mom's msg to her.. mama told her that her heart condition is not good... it makes her hard too sleep... and she thinks that i am killing her slowly...

i am a terrible daughter...

what can i do...?

change...?

i think so... i hope i can do it... but... it will be really hard... 

btw, if you are thinking what did i do, its because i slept at my friends house for 2 days... yes... just because of that..

its been months since the last time i went clubbing...

i miss those good old times...

=)