i have an imaginary friend... seriously... scary...?? pathetic...?? say all you want but hurmmm... thats the only person that i can talk to right now... i cried just now... in the office... at my place... why...?? i don't know... i just feel like there is nobody that can understand me and it hurts so much when i'm being ignored... i'm the only child... so i am so used to get all the attention and love and my mom does everything for me... so when i am given this small responsibility and i can't get it right, i feel like such a loser.. nah... it has nothing to do with work... its about my life... and i miss my mom so much right now... i feel like hugging her and cry in her arms... i have nothing to tell her... i just need that motherly comfort arms right now...

and and i am crying right now...

i hate it!!

i am so weak!!

i should grow up!!

i just can't accept it when someone scold me!!

expecially if that scolding is from someone who is close to me...

sigh~

i need to go...