i am still crying..
i've been crying since last night...
i can bearly sleep last night...
i wish i have a memory eraser so that i can erase all those memories... why does love have to be painfull...???

i should move on..


mama said it is for the best because if i'm still with you, everything would be hard.. if i marry you, we will be arguing till the end of our lives.. but she dont know the truth.. she dont know how much i love you.. she dont know how much you love me.. do you really love me...???? i don't want to let go~ but i have too...


i've been smoking like crazy.. god... i'm like digging my own grave.. lol..
god!!! life is unfair.. i don't want to be in any relationship after this because i am afraid that i might get hurt and i might hurt somebody...


mother's instinct is always right... is it true...?? if its true then i'll do as she said... i love you mama..