alya being such a good daughter...

alya : nah.. (giving mama rm100)
mama : ini bagi ke bayar hutang...?
alya : bagi la.. my 1st salary what...
mama : oh.. baru pikir nak mintak.. rm10 pun jadi la..
alya : lol!!!
alya : tak payah mintak.. yaya bagi sdiri... i'm such a good daughter kan...?
mama : bagus2... hahahaha...
mama : ini kira bagi pastu mintak balek la...?
alya : tu different story la ma...
mama : smiling

i'm sure my mom wont spend the money.. she'll be keeping it and she'll sms her sisters that i gave her some money from my 1st salary.. so typical n predictable.. lol...

and so i've received my 1st salary and pay slip today.. don't ask me how much did i get coz i won't tell you.. ;p went to klcc after office hour to shop but there is nothing interesting except for the bags!!! the nine west bag is super cool but its orange in colour and the shape of the bag makes me think twice coz i won't know where to wear it... the braun buffel bag is super nice!! rm1334.00.. 50% discount... i called mama to asked her bout the bag and she said she'll follow me to klcc on monday to check it out... mama said no need to buy the nine west bag eventhough it is cheap coz most probably the bag is made in china.. -_-"

i'm like super irritated!! coz i didnt buy anything today... i know.. i should control myself but..........

boyfriend called and asked me why i am mad... i said i'm mad coz i wanted to go shopping.. and he said he'll bring me to go shopping probably next week or end of the month since he is super busy doing i don't know what... he is the only one besides my mom who understands my needs.. lol.. and he is willing to pay for it.. hehhehe... ;p

i have been wanting to up date my blog but i was too busy to do so... i came back from work around 9.00 or 10.00 pm.. then i'll be exhausted to even switch on the lappie... thats working life.. and i hope its worth it.. lol.. i'll be getting my first salary tomorrow.. yey!!! like finally la kan.. i dont know how much it'll be, i just hope it'll be sufficient for me to shop till i drop.. :D

i applied for part time degree at UTM Space but unfortunately they rejected my application because i have no working experience.. they want 2 to 3 years working experience.. like wtf la kan.. i pay the fees what.. wth studying have to do with working experience...?! idiot!!

okey.. since its pay day tomorrow, i wanna list out my shopping list... hhehhe... ;p

• shoes
• handbag (i know i cannot afford it.. lol..)
• jeans (i think i'll ask bf to buy for me.. hhehe..)
• tops
• skirt
• pants
• eyeliner
• lipbalm
• purse (if mama won't buy for me tt means i'll buy it next month)
• lipstick

thats all.. sikit kan..?? yeah.. i know.. sikit pun i'm sure i cannot get all off the items.. life is sooo unfair.. lol.. oh btw, my bestie went to singapore last weekend just to go shopping and guess what..?! she bought 6 pairs of shoes, accessories, clothes and charles & keith's handbag!!!! i envy her la obviously... i want that charles & keith handbag too!!! its like super cheap!! can somebody, anybody buy for me the bag 1st.. i'll pay u guys later.. plz..... okey, i know none of my cousins will respond to this.. thanks a lot!!! grrr~

introducing Kiera Lim Pope.. she is super adorable + cute and pretty aite...?? i wanna squeeeeze her cheeks!! hehheheh... i want my daughter to look just like her can..?? ;p

i want a new car!! like really2!! not really la.. because i am more obsessed with shoes and handbags compared to cars.. but yeah.. it would be nice to have a new car.. hehhehehhe... i've talked to mama and i asked her to pay 50% of the price... i am such a good daughter.. ngeh~ so i need some suggestions.. what car should i buy..? ceh.. macam real je nak tukar kereta eh.. so... i was thinking of buying suzuki swift or honda jazz or honda city or nissan spectra.. mama suggested for me to buy toyota vios.. i'm confused since i don't know much bout cars..

mama came back from usrah (islamic discussion) and told me something fascinating.. ok.. its not fascinating.. its actually scary.. mama said several tenants from this condo saw the 'cik pon'.. even the chinese tenant saw her.. like wtf right...??!! damn it la!! now i am afraid to come home late.. i rather stay somewhere else then coming home at night.. i mean midnight onwards... and mama said her 'hot spot' is along my parking area!!! fuck!! like there is nowhere else to hang out izit...???!!!

the condo's management team called an ustaz last year to get rid of her but she wont go away coz she said this is her home long before the condo was build.. so the ustaz just make a 'pagar' to prevent her from disturbing the tenants.. and now she is back!! the ustaz said this is her pathway; so no matter what, she'll be here..

i seriously need a new house!!!!
asap!!!
hopefully i won't see her... ever!!! never!!! plz god!!!

my sweetest dream..

okey.. i know you guys must be thinking what the hell did i drew..
its actually a picture of mama, and my two daughters on a beach; in front of a boat.. i don't know why i can't picture what my husband would look like.. and and i want a daughter and a son.. so i don't know why my brain imagined 2 daughters.. -_-"

i just got back from work at 10.30 pm.. overtime.. not really doing my work.. heheheh... and so i have to go to work tomorrow since Julian (the boss) said we have to do overtime because we just started a new project and the project need to be completed in 2 weeks time..

i'm so not in a good mood!! i want that 2 pairs of shoes from vincci!! its super nice okkeeyyy.. grrr~ and i missed the Isetan member sale today!! the sale is for members and it is for 1 day only!! discount up to 70%!!!! aaaaaaa... i'm stressed out!!!

mama just can't shut her mouth!!! grrr~

i went to johore last weekend to attend kak ana's house warming... here are some of the photos.. i look funny with tudung... lol... and and i'm very good with kids... don't you think so...?? ;p

i ponteng today... hehheeh... as usual la kan.. i woke up late... so i decided not to go to work..

ajoy came around 3 pm.. we went to the company's panel clinic.. i told the DR i had migraine.. then i asked for MC... heheheheh... :D then we headed to midvalley and we slacked at starbucks... around 6 pm, we went to petaling street to meet up with adeq and her friends... they insisted to eat domino's pizza and adeq wanna go shopping at ampang point so we went to ampang point...

there is something about you that makes me wanna be with you

there is something about you that makes me happy

there is something about you that makes me comfortable with you

there is something about you that makes me never wanna let go

there is something about you that makes me feel secure

there is something about you that makes me feel loved

i've been busy lately.. yeah.. first time uh hearing alya say she's busy.. lol.. here is the overdue mother's day celebration pics.. i bought mama a book.. chicken soup for the soul - tribute to moms since i dont know what to buy for her.. she loves to read.. so a book is a nice gift~ hehheh.. we celebrated mother's day at Bora Ombak since mama loves to eat there.. mama was smiling the whole night!! even when we are back home.. she just cannot stop smiling.. hehhe.. i am happy that she enjoyed herself.. i am sure she felt she is appreciated and loved.. i love u mama~ muachhx... and mama insisted for me to write something on the book.. she havent started reading the book because she said she wont read it unless i write something in it.. -_-" thats my mom..

my bestfriend ask me to join her in singapore next weekend.. she wanted to see dolphines.. i guess she is planning to go to sentosa.. sentosa got dolphines meh..?? and she said singapore mega sale is starting next week.. izit true...?? i would love to join her but i dunno la.. just wait and see how..

i am emotionally unstable.. its not like i'm crazy.. hahha.. i am just.. i dunno how to describe this feeling.. god!! i really need some time alone.. i wanna go somewhere with my bestie where i can find peace and not talk about anyone that i know.. how would it be if i lost my memories...?? i am sure i'll be so confused but i think i won't be as confused and hurt as much as i am now.. life sucks!!

babies are super adorable!! i want my own babies!! but i don't want to get married.. and i don't want to give birth.. how...??? hahhaha...

went to port dickson last weekend for the freedom music festival aka tiesto party... it was GREAT!!! really!!! the party starts from 5 pm till 3 am i think.. hehheh... and thanks to ajoy for the treat... =) i was dancing like crazy and now my back hurts.. -_-" its a beach party... well, i dont know how to explain the excitement and fun at the party, so here are some of the pictures...

my art work... ngeh~

seriously, i don't know who i can trust!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i should just stick to the one i already know for so long as ............................................. (i'll keep the rest in my head..) -_-"



god!!!!!!!! i'm such a fucker!!!!!!!!



i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i am such a stupid bitch!!!! pfft~

i am still crying..
i've been crying since last night...
i can bearly sleep last night...
i wish i have a memory eraser so that i can erase all those memories... why does love have to be painfull...???

i should move on..


mama said it is for the best because if i'm still with you, everything would be hard.. if i marry you, we will be arguing till the end of our lives.. but she dont know the truth.. she dont know how much i love you.. she dont know how much you love me.. do you really love me...???? i don't want to let go~ but i have too...


i've been smoking like crazy.. god... i'm like digging my own grave.. lol..
god!!! life is unfair.. i don't want to be in any relationship after this because i am afraid that i might get hurt and i might hurt somebody...


mother's instinct is always right... is it true...?? if its true then i'll do as she said... i love you mama..

its over...

i know i don't want it to be over.. but thats the fact...

may be it is for the best...

all those words.. it hurts!!!

you want me back.. just a few minutes after you throw all those harsh words to me.. you said i forced you to say all those words.. but i was not pointing any knife at you to make you say all those things to me... you said it and there is no turning back... as much as i want to be with you again, i just have to resist it because i don't want you to get hurt.. like you said.. why do i always hurt you.. why do i always make you cry... the truth is, i never wanna make you cry.. i never wanna hurt you.. i am the problem and i don't want to burden you..

if you love me, you have to accept me for who i am.. not restricting me from doing everything that i wanna do.. i know you did all that because you love me.. but love is not enough.. there must be respect and trust in each other..

I LOVE YOU!!! i never thought i'll love someone as much as i love you..

love hurts!! it hurts me sooo badly that i can't breath...

i never knew i could hurt like this...

here, i am saying "bye bye" to you.. let time heal those wounds.. let time tell us what is going to happen to us next.. i hope you'll find someone who can take care of you better than i could.. i'll cerish every moment that we had together.. its the best moment of my life..

i shall stop talking about you from now on because i just cannot bear the pain every single second i think about you...

i love you~

i'm 53kg!! yippy!! hehehehhe... i know i'm still fat; but at least i've lost some weight.. i need to lose another 5 kg because i want my weight to be 48 kg.. some people say i look fine, i dont need to lose anymore weight.. but some people say i still look fat and i need to lose somemore weight... i'm confused!!

mama is in singapore and i'm stuck here in the office doing nothing.. i received a text msg from my mom this afternoon...

mama : what is the english word if i wanna say "cinta itu halus"

i know something is not right coz its impossible that mama dont know the translation

me : you wanna tell that to...??? hahaha.. love is.. erm.. erm.. you should know what...

mama : love is refine.. its a catch if you say love is 'FINE'.. hehheeh.. slow.. its a puzzle..

funny ah.. i tot so.. grrr~

laughter is the best medicine... ;p

1) MR. BEAN SEES A DOCTOR :
Doctor : I regret to tell you that you have a brain tumor
Mr. Bean: Yesss!!! (jumps in joy)
Doctor : Did you understand what I just told you?
Mr. Bean: Yes of course, do you think I'm dumb?
Doctor : Then why are you so happy?
Mr. Bean: Because that proves that I have a brain!

2) MR. BEAN WHILE IN GRADE SCHOOL:
Teacher : What is 5 plus 4?
Mr. Bean : 9
Teacher : What is 4 plus 5?
Mr. Bean : Are you trying to fool me, you've just twisted the figure, the answer is 6!!

3) WHILE IN A DRUG STORE:
Mr. Bean: I'd like some vitamins for my grandson.
Clerk : Sir, vitamin A, B or C?
Mr. Bean: Any will do, my grandson doesn't know the alphabet yet!!

4) AT AN ATM MACHINE:
Friend : What are you looking at?
Mr. Bean: I know your PIN no.. hee.. hee..
Friend : Alright, what is my PIN no. if you saw it?
Mr. Bean: four asterisks (****)!

5) MARRIAGE:
Friend : How many women do you believe must a man marry?
Mr. Bean: 16
Friend : Why?
Mr. Bean: Because the priest says 4 richer, 4 poorer, 4 better and 4 worse.

6) CHATTING WITH HIS FRIEND:
Friend : How was the tape you borrowed from me, is it Ok?
Mr. Bean: What do you mean ok, I thought it's a horror film. I didn't see any picture.
Friend : What tape did you take anyway?
Mr. Bean: Head Cleaner.

7) DEATH OF HIS MOTHER:
Mr. Bean: (crying) the doctor called, Mom's dead.
Friend : condolence, my friend.
(After 2 minutes) Mr. Bean cries even louder
Friend : what now?
Mr. Bean: my sister just called, her mom died too!

8) MR. BEAN ATTENDING A MEETING:
Colleague : Sorry I'm late. I got stuck in an elevator for 4 hrs because of a power failure.
Mr. Bean : That's alright, me too...I got stuck on the escalator for 3 hrs.

9) SPELLING LESSON:
Mr. Bean's Son: Dad, what is the spelling of successful... is it one c or two c?
Mr. Bean : Make it three c to be sure!

at last i get my access card!! big smile!! hehhehe.. there are 2 cards.. one is for the building access card and the other one is the office access card... tomorrow is monday... arrgghh!!! i hate weekdays!!!

went to genting on saturday; unfortunately there is no pics to share.. went out with boyfriend today.. we went to KLCC.. bought my sandals.. had lunch at Dome.. talked about politics.. hahhaha.. then we watched Ironman!! robert downey jr is sooooo hot!!!! hot!!!! hot!!!! like really2 la... fuh~ fuh~ and ironman is great!!

happy 18th birthday my dear cousin!! i'm sure yesterday's birthday bash was a blast!! i wish you all the happiness in this world.. muachhxx!! a piece of advice, be careful of every step that u'll make coz you can't turn back time to make it right again... i love you!!

its labour day, so its a holiday.. and i spent the whole day sleeping.. i woke up at 4.00 pm.. brushed my teeth, washed my face and lay down on the bed again... hehhehe... then mama and i went out to have dinner at 7.00 pm... we went to McValue to buy some stufz then we headed home.. had my shower and here i am updating my blog...

i have to work tomorrow when the whole office is on leave~ grrr~ i guess i'll be watching movie the whole day tomorrow since i don't have anything to do.. heheheh... shh~ don't tell the bosses... ;p