And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it...

just look at my little cat invading my closet... oh well... what can i do... i love him too much that i can hardly scold him... my cat gonna be 3 years old this year... i hope he can live long enough to keep me company for the rest of my life~

i had to stay home the whole day bcoz i dunno where to go... it kept me thinking bout my life... i don't live a happy life like the people i see on tv... i don't know my father... i don't have lots of friends... my life evolves with the same people... my family, my close friends and my boyfriend... talking bout friends; i wonder why i dont have many friends... okey, i might have the answers... firstly, i dont like to make friends bcoz i really choose the people that i wanna call 'friends'... secondly, may be i am not that outgoing... thirdly, i dont go out that much... pathetic...? i know...

'FAMILY'

i really wish i have a complete + happy family... sometimes i cried thinking what would it be like if my father is around...? i dont get the chance to know my dad and my mom is soo cold... u may see her as a mother that likes to talk a lot and make stupid jokes; but what you dont know is that my mom is a different person when it comes to me... she never says she loves me and she likes to brag bout other people's children... she'll make a big fuss if i do anything wrong and it will go on and on and sometimes we will not talk to each other for days... there was one time i text her and said that "i am never good enough for her and she never really cares for what i've done and achieve and the way she likes to talk bout other people's kids achievement instead of her own daughter's achievement..." and u know what she replied...? "a successfull / good person knew that she is a good and successfull person... she does not need someoneelse to tell her how good and successfull she is..." well... i admit its true but it would be nice if you hear it from your mom sayin that you are good / successfull in achieving something right...?

i just wanna live my life and make the best of it... it may takes a lot of courage to prove that i am capable of doing and achieving all the things that my mom thought is impossible for me to achieve; but i'll make sure i'll do it, attain it and make her proud of me...