Fish tycoon.. nice game for some bored humanbeing like me.. haha.. we have to breed the fish.. blablabla.. then sell it..

will you ever gonna forgive your father if he marries another woman..? nyahaha.. stupid question.. i know someone who can barely provide for the family yet he married another woman.. and recently he added another one as his 'collection'.. wth la!! i hate this type of man.. org islam boleh kahwin 4.. yah.. only if u can really affort it!! dont ask me 'who' coz my mom asked me not to tell anybody coz she dont want the 1st wife to get angry at him..

i feel like studying and not working.. i dont want to work!! work sucks!! i dont want to work.. ever!!

stress mode!! i need a letter to verify that i've finish my diploma.. the problem is.. i have to settle all my outstanding fees first.. nyah!! my pay day is on the 1st.. chaya.. then they need 3 working days to process the letter.. the closing date for the U application is on the 7th.. ahh!!

yoda plush backpack

Wanna carry Yoda on your back just like Luke Skywalker did? In return, Yoda will carry your books, laptop, clothes or whatever else you want him to carry.It even looks cool if you’re a macho biker.

The straps are adjustable and sized for adults.

nyehhehhe... super cute la.. i want one!! i found this somewhere.. i can't remember where exactly.. but who cares.. its cute!!

mama went to oman.. i'm left alone with my baby cat.. sob.. sob.. ;p i tied a peach colour ribbon around baby's neck.. cute la.. but mama said; "kau nak dia jadi bapok ke ape..?" haha..

plans for this friday

• not working coz its federal territory day
• pay my tuition fees
• go to melaka to collect my result and letter tt verifies i've finished my diploma
• post my details and result to all the U i've applied for degree

just now one of my colleague asked me..

aileen : eat already..?
alya : not yet..
aileen : you marry already ah..?
alya : what..?! do i look like a married woman..?
aileen : how old are you..?
alya : how old do you think i am..?
aileen : 26..
alya : wth..?! do i look that old...?!
aileen : you are so young meh..?
alya : i'm only 22..
aileen : i think its because of the way you dress up.. and the earings..
alya : -_-
aileen : i think you should wear something that is suitable for ur age..

wth.. wear what..? sneakers..? polo t..? haha.. what a joke la.. i'm working in an office what.. i have to wear appropriate attire.. tak kan pegi keje nak pakai macam pegi jalan2.. i asked my other colleague, selicia.. she laugh.. she said "what..? mana ada.." damn!! i want to wear appropriate attire and at the same time i want to look like a 22 years old girl.. help me!!

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a
sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs?
Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i
cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty
uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The
phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid,
aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde
Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht
oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the
olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit
and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.
The rset can be a taotl mses and you
can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm.
Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos
not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but
the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh
and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was
ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs
forwrad it.

FORWARD ONLY IF YOU CAN READ IT.

its damn easy la.. how come only 55 peps out of 100 peps can read it..?

lemon suicide~

ah.. i can really relate to this song..

[Chorus:]
I'm feeling really unappreciated.

You takin` my love for granted, babe.

I don't know how much more,

I can take from you.

You don't do the things you use to do.

You don't even say I love you too.

and lately I've been feeling,

Feeling unappreciated.

[Verse 1:]
Woke up this morning and saw your face

And you didn't look the same as yesterday.

I got the feeling that you can't seem to see,

What you want to be.

And lately it ain't been the same at all.

When you're here its like I'm invisable

I still can't seem to see where I went wrong.

Cuz I'm feeling

[Chorus:]
I'm feeling really unappreciated.

You takin` my love for granted, babe.

I don't know how much more,

I can take from you.

You don't do the things you use to do.

You don't even say I love you too.

and lately I've been feeling,

Feeling unappreciated.

[Verse 2:]
Lately our house is not a home

You come in, take a shower and then say I'm gone.

what am I to do

With my heart just leave

But my feet won't move

Today is our anniversary

But you haven't even say two words to me

I'm trying hard to give you another chance

But ooh baby I'm feeling

I'm feeling really unappreciated.

You takin` my love for granted, babe.

I don't know how much more,

I can take from you.

You don't do the things you use to do.

You don't even say I love you too.

and lately I've been feeling,

Feeling unappreciated.

[Verse 3:]
Oh when I first met youI thought you

was the most perfect man

That I ever seen

I still don't understand why

You treat me like you do

I use to give into your lust

Now I see the truth

Oh no I don't want to hear it all through

Yea I know I'll still be missing you

But it's not worth the pain

That came from you

You made me feel unappreciated

[Chorus:]
I'm feeling really unappreciated.

You takin` my love for granted, babe.

I don't know how much more,

I can take from you.

You don't do the things you use to do

.You don't even say I love you too.

and lately I've been feeling,

Feeling unappreciated.

Don't love me no more

Heeey wooo hooo

unapreciated.

I'm feeling unappreciated

Happy Birthday Ahmad the Shrek...

the 2 celenga faces.. haha.. my bf calls him ahmad the shrek coz his head is big and he burps loudly like shrek..

yey!! the month is ending.. that means pay day is approaching.. but i cannot use the money coz i have to pay my tuitoin fees.. blegh.. sacrifice~ not really a sacrifice actually thinking that its totally my fault for using the money that my mom gv for the tuition fees..

today i had blood pressure + heart test and urine test.. the examiner said my blood + heart pressure is high expecially for my age.. my urine test shows that i have prob wif my liver and kidney.. not really that bad la.. they check it by analyzing the color changes on the like a ph paper thinggy.. they said it may be caused by smoking (even for pasif smoker) and lack of sleep... and lots2 of inbalance diet.. so to indicate what really is goin on with by body; i made an appoinment wif the examiner on the 4th of February.. they'll be taking my blood and urine sample.. and i'll get the result 10-14 days after that.. its a promo, so i just have to pay rm197 instead of rm500-900 that private hospital usually charge.. and the promo is valid for 5 years.. that means i can do the test for only rm197 every year for 5 years.. cheap eh..?

it is better to prevent then to cure~

so my dear readers... plz go and check your blood and urine coz we never know what is really going on in this precious body of ours..

Attention everybody!!

i am not spoilt!! i'm just being pampered; a little bit only.. thats all.. so plz do not say that i am spoilt coz i am not... i don't get everything that i want.. my mom always gets angry at me.. i have to work now.. see.. i am not spoilt.. but i admit i have a little bit of attitute problem..

my cat is the spoilt brad!! hahaha... love him lots.. this morning i tot he was sleeping beside of me; but when i opened my eyes i saw he was watching me sleep.. how sweet~

i have never been rude to mak ijah before.. but right now, i fell like telling her to fuck off!! damn!! i hate her!!

"ani sms said ask to bring acuk, chim and aza.. norisah willing to pay.. the maid tinggal jaga rumah skudai.. don't tell your spoilt daughter.. nanti dia cemburu.."

she sent that msg to mama and mama send it to adeq and adeq send it to me.. like wth la..?! she thinks tt i wont know izit..?! i am not angry at the fact that i am not going.. i am angry by the way she constructed those f#*^%ng words!! 'don't tell your spoilt daughter coz nanti dia cemburu..?' i think she is the one that is being jealous.. yesterday she asked mama to take care of acuk at skudai.. mama said if mama not goin, might as well mama go to work.. then she said, mama is selfish.. wth la.. she just can't stop creating stupid shits bout people la.. this is not the first time she said bad things bout me to others.. she should just take care of her own daughter and don't bother bout other people's life la!! hate her!!

enough is enough!! i dont want to elaborate and talk bout this anymore!! i wont bother whats going to happen anymore..

all the aunts wanna put the blame on me.. fine.. you guys dont know how to organise things, we helped you then you put all the blame on us.. like wth!! you wanna blame me for the way i behaved..? i'm the cause..? i'm 21.. and you are..? 50..? its understanable if i behaved like that.. i'm still growing up.. still in the learning process..

its all alya's fault..

its all alya's fault..

its all alya's fault..

wth.. you guys are so old and mature and still talking like that and putting blame on people..? you should be ashame of urself!! you should find solutions not thinking who to blame..

good thing you all did / behaved like that.. at least we know that we will and will never do the same mistakes that you all did!! last minute plans - blaming people - dont know how to do on your own - dont know how to organise - dont know how to ask favours from people nicely..

wishes~
hopes~
expectations~


we wishes.. you asked.. you agreed.. then suddenly you said no.. then yes again.. then no.. and you said that it is not false hope.. if it is not, then what does it called? you said we expect too much.. well, we wont put very high expectations if you just make up your mind and say NO.. fullstop!

- new chapter -

i'm so gonna make sure i have a lot of fun next week.. ahha.. lets just hope my bf gets his crdt card by then.. weehoo~ wanna noe why..? obviously coz my mom is not around..


the thing on my eye is getting worst! it is like a much bigger version of pimple.. yucks!! got pus somemore.. i'm gonna make sure i drain all of the pus out tomorrow coz today would be very painfull~ so now i noe the thing on my eye is called 'chalazion'.. thanks to the net..


"A chalazion is a lump in the eyelid that is caused by inflammation of a gland within the skin. Typically, this lump grows over days to weeks and is occasionally red, warm, or painful.
The gland involved in the formation of a chalazion is a modified sweat gland that lies within the eyelid. This gland produces oil. When this gland becomes blocked, it can rupture and the inflammation process begins.
Inflammation is a process in which the body reacts to a condition and produces a biologic reaction. This reaction can cause swelling, redness, pain, or warmth."

Treatment

The primary treatment is application of warm compresses for 10 to 20 minutes at least 4 times a day. This may soften the hardened oils blocking the duct and promote drainage and healing.

Topical antibiotic eye drops or ointment (eg chloramphenicol or fusidic acid) are sometimes used for the initial acute infection, but are otherwise of little value in treating a chalazion. Chalazia will often disappear without further treatment within a few months and virtually all will resorb within two years.

If they continue to enlarge or fail to settle within a few months, then smaller lesions may be injected with a corticosteroid or larger ones may be surgically removed using local anesthesia. This is usually done from underneath the eyelid to avoid a scar on the skin. If the chalazion is located directly under the eyelid's outer tissue, however, an excision from above may be more advisable so as not to inflict any unnecessary damage on the lid itself. Eyelid epidermis usually mends well, without leaving any visible traces of cicatrisation.

Depending on the chalazion's texture, the excision procedure varies: whilst fluid matter can easily be removed under minimal invasivion, by merely puncturing the chalazion and exerting pressure upon the surrounding tissue, hardened matter usually necessitates a larger incision, through which it can be scraped out. Any residual matter should be metabolised in the course of the subsequent healing process, generally aided by regular appliance of dry heat. The excision of larger chalazia may result in visible haematoma around the lid, which will wear off within three or four days, whereas the swelling may persist for longer. Chalazia excision is an ambulant treatment and normally does not take longer than fifteen minutes. Nevertheless, owing to the risks of infection and severe damage to the eyelid, such procedures should only be performed by a doctor.

Rarely chalazia may reoccur and these will be biopsied to help rule out tumors.

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. Even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she is gorgeous..
• look into her eyes when you talk toher.
• let her mess with your hair
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• "FORGiVE HER FOR HER MiSTAKES"
• look at her like she`s the only one you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you`re around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms..
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she`s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

out of all of the above.. my bf only scores 6.. pathetic!! -_-"

i wanna follow go muscat.. its winter time there right..? wa.. not fair.. well, life is not fair! life sucks!

to all kachengs, lets go holiday together.. end of the year may be.. coz obviously we need to save up first.. except for azmi.. huhu..

ham suggest we go bintan..
i wanna go bali..
what bout you guys..?
beaches.. ahh~
but i want snow~

what bout hong kong..? disneyland hong kong.. wee~ haha..

aunty cha is getting married in less then 2 weeks time to a turkish guy.. he has a restaurant and 4 kids ( 2 girls + 2 guys )..

can u imagine how aunty cha membebel non stop to her new kids...? wahaha...

you are one ungrateful homosapien!! i've tried everything that i can.. i lend my ear and listen to all your problems.. i talked to you.. i kept ur secret.. i find your poly's phone number.. i pretend to be your mother and called the poly.. i asked them to give you exemptions.. no matter how hard i try, it all comes back to you.. YOU!!



there is nothing wrong with failing.. people learn from their mistakes.. if you fail, keep trying.. but you just wanna give up; and throw rm15000.00 + 3 years of your life down the drain.. and everytime i comment bout it, u'll say i should just shut up because that is none of my business.. well dear, if you are gonna be my future husband, then it'll be my business!!



i want to so that you'll change your mind and be more realistic!!



and if it does not work, i just you!!

if money is the issue, i actually think it is such a lame excuse! you are soo ego that you dont want to tell your mom! that ego wont get you anywhere! trust me! you said if i tell your mom i'll trigger an arguement between you and your family.. arguement over what...?! over your ego izit...?! god! you seriously need a theraphy.. they are your family.. they'll support you no matter what.. i am sure they'll be happy if you agree to complete your diploma.. mom will give up anything and everything to see her child success..

you said you just cannot study at the poly anymore.. well, you did survive 3 years there; so i don't think another 5 months will be such an issue.. you'll say "its easy for me to say that bcoz its not me who have to go through all of this.." - i've been through it.. i extended one semester (which is my fault for skipping classes) and i had to travel every week to melaka.. we are in the same situation; the only thing that makes us different is our 'will power'!!

For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you...

It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.

A serious note about heart attacks - You should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line. You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. 60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive.

Happy New Year to all muslims...

today suppost to be a public holiday but the company that i am working with currently does not recognise today as a public holiday... so wat did i do...? i skipped work... i called in sick... not suprising because it is so typical of me to skipp class or work... hueh~

well, i had a great day... someone came to massage mama today and mama asked her to massage me as well... it was good + a bit painful... i keep on screaming and she said thats how i'll scream on my first wedding night... -_-" lol... and she scrubbed my back... it feels good and i smell coffeelicious... she was using coffee scrub on me because of my acne problem...

just look at my lazy cat... he cat stop eating and now he is so lazy that he lay down while playing...

what does it called...?

attraction - crush - in love

the girl feels excited when she knew he is coming...

the girl put on her lipstick when she knew he is coming...

the girl check herself out in the mirror when she knew he is coming...

the girl can't stop smiling when he is around...

choices.. it is nice to know that you have choices but in the other hand, u'll b torn to have to choose only one...

the one you just met for a few weeks or the person that have gone through everything - ups and downs with you...?

love need sacrifices... eventhough i'm confused with my feelings,

i will not leave you now...

i know this is the time you need me the most...

the time you need someone to talk to...

the time you need someone to lean on...

the time you need someone to give you moral support...

it is one of those time that you just dont know what to do and you lost all the streght... i'll be here for you but you have to wake up coz i wont be here forever~

monday~
the day i suppost to read all those ridiculous handwritting and retype it back and send it on tuesday... it is called tealeaves... here is one of the chayaya tealeave that i received for today.. it really cracked me up... may b u wont get it...

New coffee machine...?
are you sure...?
this machine make me crazy!
my girlfriends leave me!
i lost my memory!
Everybody hate me!
bcoz of this machine!
i can't see my future!!
my nightmare is this coffee machine!!!

i think he just wanna say that he dont know how to use the machine~ lol...

and there is another one sayin "do many deduction in our salary..." wtf right...? i'm sure the boss would be happy to do so... -_-"

And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it...

just look at my little cat invading my closet... oh well... what can i do... i love him too much that i can hardly scold him... my cat gonna be 3 years old this year... i hope he can live long enough to keep me company for the rest of my life~

i had to stay home the whole day bcoz i dunno where to go... it kept me thinking bout my life... i don't live a happy life like the people i see on tv... i don't know my father... i don't have lots of friends... my life evolves with the same people... my family, my close friends and my boyfriend... talking bout friends; i wonder why i dont have many friends... okey, i might have the answers... firstly, i dont like to make friends bcoz i really choose the people that i wanna call 'friends'... secondly, may be i am not that outgoing... thirdly, i dont go out that much... pathetic...? i know...

'FAMILY'

i really wish i have a complete + happy family... sometimes i cried thinking what would it be like if my father is around...? i dont get the chance to know my dad and my mom is soo cold... u may see her as a mother that likes to talk a lot and make stupid jokes; but what you dont know is that my mom is a different person when it comes to me... she never says she loves me and she likes to brag bout other people's children... she'll make a big fuss if i do anything wrong and it will go on and on and sometimes we will not talk to each other for days... there was one time i text her and said that "i am never good enough for her and she never really cares for what i've done and achieve and the way she likes to talk bout other people's kids achievement instead of her own daughter's achievement..." and u know what she replied...? "a successfull / good person knew that she is a good and successfull person... she does not need someoneelse to tell her how good and successfull she is..." well... i admit its true but it would be nice if you hear it from your mom sayin that you are good / successfull in achieving something right...?

i just wanna live my life and make the best of it... it may takes a lot of courage to prove that i am capable of doing and achieving all the things that my mom thought is impossible for me to achieve; but i'll make sure i'll do it, attain it and make her proud of me...

2oo8

may 2oo8 usher in love, joy and prosperity for all of us...

i hope for the best in 2oo8~ i just stayed at home for new year celebration... boring.. i know... mama and i went to ampang point to do some shopping, then we went to craven cafe to slack for few hours, then we headed home... (slack with ur mom when everybody is having party is really pathetic!!)

new year that means new resolution eventhough i havent achieve my 2007 resolution.. =)

• weight 48kg
• be a better person
• quit smoking
• not get angry that fast
• learn how to appreciate things / people better
• get along with my mom

these are the list that i need / want to do for this year :

• pay my tuition fees of $920
• get enroll for degree
• find a better job
• new purse
• new shoes
• new handbags
• new closet
• new bunch of clothes
• new handphone
• convocation