juz finish my packaging assignment... have to hantar tomorrow... i am at home... so i e-mail my assignment to my fren n ask her to print it out for me.... thanks atie... love u so much!!! hehe...

i am emotionally cured... hehe... why should i b sad when he is having such a great time aite...? hm... i am so confused with my feelings for him... love + hate + irritated + angry...

i am EMO-ing.... wa... i juz broke up with my bf.... shit!!! i am seriously irritated with him!!! i cant believe i cried over the stupidest thing.... argh!!!!!

i am really mad at him coz yesterday he asked me to fetch his sister at her collage... ok la... i dont mind coz his sis's collage is juz 30 minutes away from my campus... i send her home... then i ask him to go jalan-jalan coz its merdeka's eve... he said no... coz he is bla.... bla.... bla... then he promised me that he'll go out with me today... go jalan-jalan at putrajaya... i was so exited coz i havent go to alamanda putrajaya before...

this morning he told me that he cant go out with me juz because his parents ask him to go on a holiday with them.... to pulau redang... he oledi told me bout that pulau redang thing... but he told me that he is not going... thats why i am so pissed off with him!!! he promised me then he broke his promise... how can he do that to me... i dont mind if he tell me earlier... but... argh....!!!!

last week oso he didnt go out with me coz he went to putrajaya for i dont know la wat commitee... hate him la....!!!! i swear i will never ever fetch his sis ever again!!!! do u think i am being unresonable...? well... i dont care... coz i really felt that i have the right to b mad eventhough it is over some stupid reason!!!! can u imagine he said that i am being over-reacting over some something thing...?! how could u...?!

something funny happened two days ago... i was so damn sleepy... but i have to woke up to drive back to melacca... so as usual before shower, i'll brush my teeth 1st... but instead of squeezing the tooth paste, i squeeze my cleanser on my toothbrush... haha... luckily i didnt straight away brush my teeth... silly me!!! haha...

tomorrow is 31st August...!!! its Malaysia's independant day... MERDEKA!!! MERDEKA!!! MERDEKA!!! i am proud to b malaysian... =)


The Malaysian National Flag consists of fourteen red and white stripes (along the fly) of equal width, a union or canton of dark blue, a crescent and a star. The red and white stripes stand for equal status in the federation of the member states and the federal government. The union or canton of dark blue represents the unity of the peoples of Malaysia. The union contains the crescent which is the symbol of Islam, and the star, the 14 points of which symbolise the unity of the 13 states of the federation with the federal government. The yellow of the crescent and the star is the royal colour of the Rulers.

The former Prime Minister Datuk Seri Dr. Mahathir Mohamad has introduced many changes into the economic, political and social systems of Malaysia. On the 40th anniversary of the country's independence, 31 August 1997, provision was made for an official name for the national flag. The version chosen, Jalur Gemilang, combines a Malay word meaning "stripes" or "range of values" with the adjective ("gemilang") signifying "glorious".

i am still in the holiday mood... i dont want to go to school!!! but i have to coz i have lots of things to do... this is the list of all the things that i need to do...

Lab report

- food packaging

Assignments

- food packaging
- food sanitation
- thermodynamics
- Quality Assurance & Quality Control

Tutorial

- electrical technology ( chapter 1 n 2 )

quiz

- Quality Assurance & Quality Control

Final year project

- research n development
- thesis
- the product

argh... i am really strees up!!! i really need to complete all of these to get good grades... i need some help with my tutorial coz i am really not good in electric... electric sucks!!! =p

* Nicole Scherzinger from PCD is so hot!!! *

my blog's song... "notice me"... by NB Ridaz...

Ohh I want to let you know

That I'll always love you baby

Sometimes I think about

Everything that we've been through

And I pray that you would just open your eyes

I love you (I love you baby, I love you to girl)

I need you (I need you too)

So please don't throw our love away (forgive me girl, Don't throw our love away)

Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone

I knew from that night something special went on

It must have been the first kiss

You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this

I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same

I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain

You were the one that always made things right

I promise you this though you got a friend for life

Maybe one day we can try it again

And maybe things can be a little different

So lets jus kiss and say goodbye

Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry

I've given everything (given everything)

I loved you endlessly

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me (forgive me baby)

I've given everything (yeah)

I loved you endlessly (oooh)

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

All that's mine is yours that's what I said

Treat you with love and respect in everyway

You wanted I gave it need me I was there

Now you treat like if I'm not here

I love you and I need you don't want to let go

If you want somebody else please let me know

Can't take it no more I feel im dying inside

Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?

I know I'm not prefect but I truly cared

So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there

Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same

Gave you everything and you threw it all away

I've given everything (given everything)

I loved you endlessly

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

I've given everything (yeah)

I loved you endlessly (oooh)

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

I gave you my good and my bad

My heart and my soul,

My trust my money my time,

What more could you ask for in a man

Even when times are hard

I held out my arms and held you

Even excepted you though whatever weather

But now I feel it we're at the end of the road

Whatever we had now I got to let go

Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall

To cover my tears

Wishing I could replace all those wasted years

Of loving someone who couldn't love me back

And now again I got to start from scratch

But I know I've given you my everything

I've given everything (given everything)

I loved you endlessly

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

I've given everything (yeah)

I loved you endlessly (oooh)

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

yesterday i watched "snakes on plane..." it was a great movie!!! seriously... at first i thought it gonna b a boring movie... but it is not!!! u guys should really watch this movie... can u imagine being in a plane full of deadly snakes...?! scary!!! this movie is hilarious, campy, and gratifying... Just for fun: bring along a pocket full of rubber snakes. I'm sure you'll think of SOMETHING to do with them!! haha...

One of my cuzzie told me that two of my cuzzies drank... I dunno wat type of 'drink' do they drank beer or watever... the funny part was after they drank, they belched... and they say "alhamdullillah..." ... haha... chayaya... u drank something bad then u say alhamdullillah...?! Guess who those culprits are? Hehe...

Someone told me that drinking is better then smoking... huhu... plz leave ur comment for this statement...

i've change my blog's skin... what do u guys think...? this skin is better or the older skin is better...?

if i can go to the past, there is something that i really wanna change... something that i've kept deep inside... it hurts so much when u turn back n see all the mistakes that u had made... it really made me feel bad bout myself... made me feel that i am such a stupid person for not knowing the consequences of all my actions... i hate myself for all the things that i did....!!!

how can we tell that the person really love us...? how can we tell that all those things that they said to us is true...? argh... i'm really in a dilemma rite now...

what is happening to this world...?! huh... i juz dont get it... chayaya!!! its not that i hate smokers but... how do u react when ur mom smokes too...?! WTF!!! she is 52 years old... but she is acting like she is 25...!!! -_-" gosh!!!! ARGH!!!! ok... may b i over reacted but... i know that she used to smoke when she was young... but that was years ago... whats wrong with her...?! stress...?! haha... dont make that as an excuse... that is such a lame excuse!!! i'm studying now... i'm stress up 2!!! i have to complete my final year project... i have 2 write thesis... i have tons of assignments to do... but i dont smoke!!!

some of my cuzzies smokes... some of my frenz smokes... but i dont... bcoz i know how to control myself... cant u smokers out there tell me why do u guys smoke...?! i juz dont get it... my bf smokes 2!!! he tried to deny it... but u cannot fool me u moron!!! of course i can smell the ciggy smell idiot!!! i hate peps lying 2 me... its ok to tell me the truth... but dont lie to me!!!

[[ this poem is owh so sweet.... ]]

every moment is spent in dreams

now, for me, life only means

that since you were in my arms

I have dwelt among the stars

shadows fly across the night

cast away by the loving sight

of you smiling in the light

on the day

you went away

in my dreams,

now,

to my chest, my quilt I clutch

in my sleep, I want so much

to hold you again

with no clear end

no tomorrow, no good-byes

no more lonely, aching sighs

only a hope

to find a place

where I belong

in the heart of your love song

sing until we watch the dawn

side by side

in sweet dreams

because the only part of life that's real

is the way you make me feel

that only part (my heart)

longs to kiss you still (and will)

on the day you come back home

my stomach was really painful after eating mee hon tom yam this afternoon... damn!!! its not like the usual period pain or something... its like there are thorns in my stomach... argh... can u imagine the feeling...?! sakit!!!

my mom took me to the clinic n the DR made some check ups n it turns out that i hv gastric... that is the reason why i keep on belching... huhu... so the DR gave me gastric pills n this liquid drug to get rid of air... *angin*... it taste horrible!!!! bluek...

nyway... juz now i tried two chocolate recipes... CHERRY MARSHMALLOW SLICE and DARK CHOCOLATE MINT FUDGE... sounds complicated... but its actually easy to make it... really easy... havent taste it yet... i noe it gonna b tasty... haha...

:: something to laugh at... ::

my NOKIA 3250


yippy... hehe... i cant stop smilling... haha... its bcoz i juz bought a new hp!!!! (",) i bought NOKIA 3250... adek... aku tak jadi bli NOKIA 6680... hehe... actually i wanted 2 buy NOKIA 6680... but the shop which i wanna buy the phone said that model finish oledi... then i take a look at NOKIA 3250's function... wa... the phone wrocks!!!! the 3250 model is way more better then the 6680 model... haha... sory teem... i noe u wanna buy that phone... but i cant resist it!!! hehe... sory again... the phone come with 512 memory card... it is sooooooo worth it!!! i bought it for $1140.... cheap meh... i dont need an ipod now... coz i can store up to 700 songs in it... i am soooooooooooooo damn happy!!!! yahoo!!!

have u all heard of IFC...? IFC is the Inter-Faith Commission... a proposal by a number of non-governmental organisations to set up the Interfaith Commission of Malaysia... i think the government should not accept that stupid idea... it is a disgrace for malaysia because if this proposal is accepted, indirectly the government agrees with the apostasy idea... because of this proposal, now there are around 200 000 peps in malaysia is waiting to apostasy... man... WTF are these peps thinking...?!

huhu... hey cuzzies... we gonna get a new aunt... haha...

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you...

i cried till my eyes swelled last nite... all because of my cat!!! he really means a lot to me... he is more then juz a cat... peps will say that i'm silly to cry over a missing cat... but wat can i say...? i love him so much that i cant even think about living without him... hhuhu... i love my cat more then i love my bf... n thats a fact... -_-

this morning when i was sleeping, my mom gave me a msg... telling me that baby is back!!! wa... wat a relieve... i miss u soooooo much baby... cant wait to go home n hug + kiss u.... muahh5.... love u baby!!! hehe... this is the msg that my mom gave to me this morning...

the person who kidnapped baby has returned him this morning @ 10 am... i heard his collar coz i leave the door open... i decided 2 look out.... there i c him strutting in front of the hse... he saw me n came inside... he is really traumatised n femished... he eats sooooo much....

haha... i told u that my cat knows how to come back... someone must have kidnapped him tts why he didnt come home last nite... i'm sooooo glad that he is ok... my mom told me that he dont even want to go to the door... haha... he must be really traumatised because of yesterday's incident... love u baby!!!

i'm so damn sad right now... my mom msg me this morning and told me that baby is missing... wa... i feel like crying rite now... she told me that she already asked the guards and the kids that usually play with baby but they said that they didnt see him... i asked my mom to put baby's pic n our address at the notice board but the damn stupid, idiot lady at the condo office said that it is againts the condo's regulations... WTF!!! what kind of rule is that...?!

OH GOD... I HOPE MY MOM CAN FIND BABY ASAP.... i'm really down rite now... my mom said that may b one of the tenant took him... if i find that bustard, i'll definately kill him!!!! my mom asked me if i want a new cat...? WTF!!! she juz lost my baby n now she is asking if i want a new cat... I WANT MY BABY BACK!!!!! -_-

juz now my mom told me this scary story... at my condo the guards duty is to petrol every hour... petrol every floor... and the roof top... there is where the water tank is... then one night... when this guard were petrolling on the roof top... she saw this lady... sure u all know rite who is "the lady?"... scary...!!!! then he told the surau people... the surau people tell the ustaz that usually come to teach them agama bout this lady... the ustaz some how can communicate with this "things..."... so the ustaz communicate with the lady... ask her to go away.... not to disturb the peps here... but the lady refused... she say she dont want coz this is her place... like home la i think... coz before this condo was build, this place is actually a pond... so the pond is like her land la like that... so thats why she dont want to go...

huhu... luckily every night when i bring baby down stairs go jalan2 i never see her... scary man if i see her... i hope i'll never ever see her... the ustaz had build like "pagar" so that the lady cannot cross the stairs... but my mom said, its actually no use... coz the lady can fly... so no use ah... haiya... now i cannot go home late... coz scared i'll see the lady... its 12.55 am now... i'm damn scared man!!! wa... wanna finish this post as soon as possible then i wanna go sleep... actually i wanna write more... but cannot ah... I'M SCARED!!!

yippy... i had a GREAT weekend...!!! hehe... thanks to my girlfriends.... love u gurlz... (",)
yesterday i went to KLCC wif my gurlfriends [ rafie n ishah ]... we watched "CLICK"... wa... its a damn great movie! seriously u guyz should go n watch it... the movie was sooooooooooo touching!!! hehe.... we thought that it is a funny movie... it is a funny movie!!! haha... but there was this part that was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sad!!! really2 touching!!! wa... i had never cried that bad bef0re juz because of some movie... but seriously this movie made me cry like.... damn!!! huhu... i think the back and front row can hear me crying... haha... chayaya... but i'm not the one that cried... my friends cried 2... hehe... u guyz should go n watch the movie!!!

after the movie, we go n eat at burger king... went shopping... buy some stufz... go here n there.... then we went home at 4... we go n hang out at rafie's hse... we was chatting until didnt realize that it was 9 pm... haha... long time no see meh... tts why got lots of things to story.... me n ishah end up sleeping at rafie's hse... we slept at 4 am....!!!! story... story... n more story to tell.... hehe... it was really fun to hang out wif my friends... planning to go to A Famosa resort with them next weekends...

:: dedicated to all Star Wars fans.... ::

:: cute! cute! cute! ::

:: the pussycat dolls ::

pussycat dolls came to malaysia last month for their world tour... i didnt get to see them coz i didnt get the free tickets from hitz.fm.... wa..... soooo sad... i love them soooooooooo much!!!! haha... sorry dont have close up pic... =( these are the best pics that i can get... wahaha...

i read an article juz now saying that the pussycat dolls organizers were fined $10,000 for allowing the PCD wore skimpy costumes and performing "sexually suggestive routines." haha... wat a joke!!!

Absolute Entertainment, the organizers of a pussycat dolls concert in July, were fined by the Subang Java Municipal Council after Malaysian authorities got more than a little hot with the promoters for allowing the Dolls to take the stage wearing skimpy costumes and performing "sexually suggestive routines." It was reported on Wednesday that the promoters were fined 10,000 ringgit ($2,714) for ignoring decency regulations and allowing the concert to proceed unaltered.

this pic was taken last november... i didnt realize i was tt fat!!! hehe...



this pic was taken last m0nth... i dont look as fat as the above pic aite...?! hehe...

yesterday i bought new DVD... "AQUAMARINE" and "MY SUPER EX-GIRLFRIEND"... when i reached home, i wanted to watch the movie... i was thinking of watching "aquamarine" 1st... after inserting the CD, i waited a few minutes but nothing appears... i tried 3 times... but still the same... wanna know why...?! bcoz the CD is empty!!!! WTF! ok.... then i try to play the second CD, it turn out well at first... the story was hilarious... but suddenly it stops... chayaya... argh... hate piracy... piracy sucks!!! i've learn my lesson... never ever buy pirated CD / DVD nymore...!!!!

:: my baby's pic ::

this cat is soooooooooooo cute!!! hehe...

i am super duper happy today.... (",) hehe... wanna know why....? coz i bought a new GUCCI sunglass today.... hehe... at last i get a new sunglass... my old GUESS sunglass is still in good shape but i really wanted a new sunglass like paris hilton's one... ok... not exactly like her's coz it would cost me couple thousand dollars... huhu... but still, i'm really happy to get this new sunglass... we...

hm... still waiting to buy a new phone... i'm still not sure wanna buy the nokia N70 or else... argh... i cant wait to work n earn my own money... that time i can buy whatever i wanna buy.... i juz LOVE shopping!!! shop.... shop.... n shop... hehe... hu... i've been spending a lot of money lately on shopping... every weekends i'll go shopping... i'll buy @ least one item... hehe... nevamind la... my own money... for my own satisfaction... hehe...

hm... i've been dieting... really... i eat only one meal a day... it is hard for me to see other peps eating but i cant eat... but its ok... its for my own good... hehe... i see some improvement... i can fit my old jeans... hehe... last time cannot... but now can oledi... wa... i'm sooo happy for myself... need to diet some more... i'll prove to all of my sarcastic cuzzies that i can slim down!!!! =p

i love this song!!!


Artist : Beyonce feat. Jay Z
Song : Deja Vu

You ready B?
Yeah Jay...
Let's kill em dis time...
(Intro) Jay I'm havin Deja Vu...
Nigga I'm feelin so confused...
Sit down and listen for a while
Let's try to figure this (uh) out...

Verse 1: It seems like I been through this once before
With another man, Everytime I hold your hand
I flashback, remembering what we had
What we used to do, Damn he reminds me so much of you
I aint trying to make you mad, But I got it bad
I don't know what to do, I'm confused
When you're holding me, I feel his touch
And when you're kissin me, Damn it's just to much!
I gotta put this to an end, before it get's the best of me
Is the sudden reaccuring thoughts sayin that I should leave?!
(Could it be?) That what we had is ova?
(All I know!) Is that I'm in love wit HOVA
When I look in his eyes, I see me with another guy
I can't deny, It's called...

(Hook) Deja Vu...
It's got me slippin, trippin, Wishin I could be with him again
And I aint talkin' bout just friends
Ooh Wee Ooh...
I know it's wrong, but it wont leave me alone
That's why I'm singing this song
Well me and you had good times
But now he's back on my mind
Should I stay, Should I go (Oh!)
I just don't know
He's back in my head, Oh yeah that's what I said
Right now I'm real confused,
And the symptoms say, Deja Vu...
Ooh, ooh, Deja Vu, ooh (4x)

Jay Z: Anotha nigga comes back in the picture girl
And you bout to mess up what we had
Am I sad? (Hell Naw!!) I'm cool
I can have Deja Vu too...(Ooh)
After I done gave you you everything
Even made you R & B Queen (That's right)
I guess you Still In Love Wit Yo Ex
Like yo girl, Damn I knew you was next!
We toured the world, when I made you my girl
Everyone knew you was Jay's lady
Let you wear my chain,
Turned you into the «Hottest Chick In The Game»
I had you 'Crazy In Love' (uh huh)
I Guess it wasn't enough (uh uh)
Don't say that you confused,
Just tell the truth, Don't blame it on Deja Vu...

(Hook) Ooh, ooh, Deja Vu, ooh (4x)

Jay Z: Keepin our relationship undercova, that's
what you did with ya
otha lova!

Beyonce: Maybe I'm just private baby,
That's a circumstance when I'm yo lady!

Jay Z: When we go out, we can't hold hands,
what the hell is wrong, you ashamed of ya man?

Beyonce: Nigga, You know that aint the truth,
It's hard right now cause I'm confused.

Jay Z: Just cause you still stuck on-

Beyonce: Wait! Don't say his name...

Jay Z: I'm about to let the secret out B, I'm sick of yo games!
Do you know how hard life is to maintain?
WHen I got you on the brain?
Got the media speculatin,
«Jay Can't Do His Job!» I'm ashamed!

Beyonce: You know that aint the deal, and I'm trying to keep it real.
I don't know what to do I said it before babe I'm confused.

Jay Z: If you leave, don't call my phone B, Ima put you on some reality, Go back to him, Then we done, It's all over, what we had was fun!

Beyonce: You know it's that way, I was always gonna stay, If I just walked out like that, I never loved you anyway!
It's not that big of a deal, The feelings may not be real,
Baby I was just confused, All because of a bad case of DEJA VU!!!!!