its 2.30 am and i still can't get myself to sleep... sigh~
since i don't know what to do, i decided to blog...
i am contemplating either to continue my degree or not because the course is so damn difficult and i don't think it relates to the job that i am doing... i am not really into technical site nowadays since my boss promoted me to project coordinator / proposal coordinator... so i basically monitor projects progress and make proposal for bid... boring huh...?
if i am in design, then this course would be good for me...
but then if i want to concentrate on PDMS, i think it would be better for me to take professional course for PDMS such as admin / pml right...?
it is really hard to decide!
i talked to my mom and she asked me what i want to do in the future... she asked me if i want to work with PDE for the rest of my life... she asked me if i want to be project coordinator for the rest of my life... i was like... hmmm... she is not helping me with my decision at all! obviously she disagree with me to discontinue my degree since she have masters so she wants me to have higher education then she does... expectations... what can you do with it..?? sigh~
and so i decided to go with the flow... i went to the classes even tho i can't understand a single word that the lecturer is saying.. i am physically in the class but my mind is elsewhere...
my heart had never been in engineering...
i prefer working in labs.. it is more interesting... you get to analyze something new and learn new things... but now i am stuck here doing something that i don't have passion for... i just do it anyway for the money... it is so pathetic!
how do i end up in engineering...??
because my mom forced me to take this bloody course of course!
well... may be it is good for me... just may be...
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
a girl can dream as much as she wants right...??
guess how i visualize myself in 10 years time...??
i'll be happily married... with adorable kids... in my dream house...
i will be spending my time at home doing some gardening... sending and fetching my kids to school... help them with their homework... cook for my family...
have tea with my best friends...
go shopping whenever i feel like going...
and may be i'll have my own business...
it would be like in fairy tales if all my dreams could come true...
haaaiiizzz...
if only...
*keeping my fingers crossed*
since i don't know what to do, i decided to blog...
i am contemplating either to continue my degree or not because the course is so damn difficult and i don't think it relates to the job that i am doing... i am not really into technical site nowadays since my boss promoted me to project coordinator / proposal coordinator... so i basically monitor projects progress and make proposal for bid... boring huh...?
if i am in design, then this course would be good for me...
but then if i want to concentrate on PDMS, i think it would be better for me to take professional course for PDMS such as admin / pml right...?
it is really hard to decide!
i talked to my mom and she asked me what i want to do in the future... she asked me if i want to work with PDE for the rest of my life... she asked me if i want to be project coordinator for the rest of my life... i was like... hmmm... she is not helping me with my decision at all! obviously she disagree with me to discontinue my degree since she have masters so she wants me to have higher education then she does... expectations... what can you do with it..?? sigh~
and so i decided to go with the flow... i went to the classes even tho i can't understand a single word that the lecturer is saying.. i am physically in the class but my mind is elsewhere...
my heart had never been in engineering...
i prefer working in labs.. it is more interesting... you get to analyze something new and learn new things... but now i am stuck here doing something that i don't have passion for... i just do it anyway for the money... it is so pathetic!
how do i end up in engineering...??
because my mom forced me to take this bloody course of course!
well... may be it is good for me... just may be...
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
a girl can dream as much as she wants right...??
guess how i visualize myself in 10 years time...??
i'll be happily married... with adorable kids... in my dream house...
i will be spending my time at home doing some gardening... sending and fetching my kids to school... help them with their homework... cook for my family...
have tea with my best friends...
go shopping whenever i feel like going...
and may be i'll have my own business...
it would be like in fairy tales if all my dreams could come true...
haaaiiizzz...
if only...
*keeping my fingers crossed*
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